Tuesday, October 22, 2019

Gif of the Day


This is going around thanks to the news of the huge Meowth in the new Pokemon games. Don't know why it's glitching.

Feels Update

Nothing really struck me with inspiration to blog today, not that shit's not going down, but whatever I'm gonna talk about how I've been doing.

I feel like things are starting to basically go back to normal, except with me being more social and going on more walks. Thinking about playing video games still brings up a weird anxiety, but it seems to be overall gradually going away. Sometimes it feels like my emotional walls pop back up and I get all tense inside and get stomach pains even (literally this happens when I suppress my emotions too much). But right now I think I'm allowing myself to feel and thinking about what I'll do with the rest of the day is only bringing up a faint bit of anxiety.

I also came up with a metaphor about life and mental illness that involves video games, so buckle up. Sometimes I can get so down when it seems like progress on life and mental health is so slow, and sometimes I even take steps back. It's frustrating and it aggravates my fear of wasting my time and that things will never really get better. But then I remembered how I'm one of those people who, when faced with a boss I'm really not up to level for, I will just keep trying over and over again because I know that eventually (unless I'm WAY out of my league), a combination of the skill gained from numerous attempts and luck will combine to bring me victory.

Sometimes when the boss is really hard, I'll get frustrated and feel like I'm wasting my time. But when it comes to video games, it's easy to remember that every attempt is a step toward winning. Even when an attempt goes worse than the one before it, I know I'm learning and getting closer to that time when I'll get enough luck and skill together to beat the boss.

I just need to translate that to real life. Mental illness and climate change fears aren't exactly like video game bosses, but the point is that even steps backward are a part of progress.

It's still hard to feel so uncertain of the future. I still struggle a lot with guilt. But I even think I'm feeling physically better. For a while I was feeling really tired a lot of the time and I was worried something was physically wrong with me, but it might have just been the tiring emotions I was experiencing. Anxiety and depression really drain you.

It's a really strange time to live in. I still think a lot about the meaning of existence. I still feel like I should be doing so much more to help/prepare for possible bad times ahead but it's hard. Preparing for doomsday doesn't sound fun at all. Also I'm gonna feel really silly if it wasn't necessary. But also I feel silly for worrying about feeling silly. Welcome to my brain.

One thing I did do was finally launch a Discord server as a support group for climate-related anxiety and grief. I've been promoting it on my Tumblr account and so far a few people have joined and there have already been good discussions! If you want to join, this link is set to never expire. I think most people who read this already follow me on Tumblr but whatevs, the more the merrier.

I really hope there's something beyond this mortal existence. I don't talk about spiritual shit a whole lot but at this point in my life I'd be pissed if it's just this and then eternal oblivion. Anyway, have a good Tuesday.

Monday, October 21, 2019

Gif of the Day


It's almost Halloween.

Happy Asexual Awareness Week!

In a move that I was somehow entirely unaware of until the good ace people of Tumblr started spreading it around, Washington State Governor Jay Inslee officially declared this week to be Asexual Awareness Week in the state by signing a proclamation on the 15th.

Check it out:

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Here's the full text, provided by Seattle Aces & Aros, who deserve much/all of the credit for this:

The State of Washington
Proclamation
WHEREAS asexuality is an often unknown and misunderstood sexual orientation; and
WHEREAS people who are asexual but have not heard of asexuality may often feel confused, discouraged, and lonely; and
WHEREAS discovering asexuality can be an affirming, positive, life-changing experience; and
WHEREAS the goal of Asexual Awareness Week is to promote education and understanding about asexuality; and
WHEREAS there are estimated to be at least 70,000 openly identified asexual people in the State of Washington; and
WHEREAS the inclusive and diverse State of Washington is proud to be at the forefront of LGBTQIA+ recognition and acceptance;
NOW, THEREFORE, I, Jay Inslee, Governor of the state of Washington, do hereby proclaim October 20-26, 2019, as
Asexual Awareness Week
in Washington, and I encourage all people in our state to join me in this special observance.
Signed this 15th day of October, 2019
[signed]
Governor Jay Inslee

Inslee is right in that many people are still entirely unaware of ace and aro people or woefully misinformed on the orientations. The biggest thing people seem to struggle with is grasping the difference between desiring any kind of sexual activity and experiencing sexual attraction. Ace people aren't people who just "don't want to fuck" and aro people aren't people who want to fuck without committing to a relationship.

It's unfortunately necessary to repeatedly remind all readers that this blog is 100% ace/aro inclusive and people who would exclude these lovely folks from LGBTQ+ spaces suck and aren't welcome here.

I love all my ace/aro siblings!



Friday, October 18, 2019

Gif of the Day


And now back to your regularly scheduled internetting.

Asylum Seekers In ICE Detention Planning Mass Suicide

[TRIGGER WARNING: CONCENTRATION CAMPS, ATTEMPTED AND COMPLETED SUICIDE]

So, the thing I feared would happen happened. We stopped talking about the concentration camps. They absolutely still exist. A couple were closed down as far as I've heard but there are still dozens across the country and people are still dying in them. I don't know that much if anything was done about the conditions in the facilities visited by liberal politicians months ago. The news on them has dried up, at least in mainstream outlets.

Maybe it's just inevitable. How long can humans keep looking at something so horrible before they can't stand it anymore? Focusing so much on these atrocities was absolutely hard on my mental health. As much as I wanted to keep writing about concentration camps, yelling about them, reminding people daily of their existence, I stopped. I was overwhelmed by feeling helpless, like I should just say "fuck it" and spend all my money to travel somewhere, risk arrest by, doing what? Attacking the facility? Protesting peacefully even though I know it wouldn't do anything?

The fact is that until we can get mass amounts of people to march on the camps, closing them will be at best a slow process and more will be built as long as Trump is in office. I was unable to rile up enough people. We all failed to capitalize on the temporary public attention and outrage. I don't know what to say.

One thing I can do now, today, is to remind you once again that these human atrocities never went away. Things haven't gotten better, and now it's so bad that detainees are planning a mass suicide. Two have already attempted, and one man has died by suicide in detention.

BREAKING: Two asylees attempt suicide, others threaten mass action in New Mexico ICE detention facility

This week, two Cuban asylum seekers detained at the Otero County Processing Center (OCPC) slit their wrists and at least 19 others are planning on doing so in an act of mass resistance. Conditions and rights violations at OCPC have become so untenable that many view this drastic step as their only option to bring about change. The two men are in medical care, others have been placed in solitary confinement, and the situation is escalating.

A judge ruled that ICE needed to start releasing asylum seekers on parole while their cases were pending again, as they did pre-Trump, but since that ruling over a year ago, ICE has defied the judge by keeping these refugees detained for many months.

People are about to die. One already has.

The news of potential suicide attempts from Cuban asylum seekers comes the same week as Roylan Hernandez-Diaz, a 43-year-old asylum seeker from Cuba, died of an apparent suicide at the Richwood Correctional Center in Louisiana. As reported in Buzzfeed News, his widow claims he had just begun a hunger strike after passing his credible fear interview, then having his request to be paroled — released to his wife — denied.

I know a lot of shit is happening and it's so hard to look at this but please, at least spread this on social media. Human beings are ready to kill themselves en masse if we don't help them.

Thursday, October 17, 2019

Gif of the Day


Don't fuck with Khajiit, big lizard.

"Fuck Work" Said The Medieval Peasant

I'm never gonna stop randomly reminding you that you shouldn't be working as much as the capitalists are making you work. This is an article for 2016 but I came across it again on Tumblr and I think you should know.

The average American worker takes less vacation time than a medieval peasant

Seriously, read the whole article and be angry.

The Church, mindful of how to keep a population from rebelling, enforced frequent mandatory holidays. Weddings, wakes, and births might mean a week off quaffing ale to celebrate, and when wandering jugglers or sporting events came to town, the peasant expected time off for entertainment. There were labor-free Sundays, and when the plowing and harvesting seasons were over, the peasant got time to rest, too. 
In fact, economist Juliet Shor found that during periods of particularly high wages, such as 14th-century England, peasants might put in no more than 150 days a year. As for the modern American worker? After a year on the job, she gets an average of eight vacation days annually.

Nearly half the fucking year off. And this is from Business Insider. I also see that use of "she" there, Lynn, and I appreciate you.

And the really ridiculous thing is that all this work kills productivity and doesn't increase long-term profits. But capitalism lives on short-term profit bursts that get the few very at the very top make a shit ton of money before they get out.

The rest of us pay the price.

According to the Organisation for Economic Co-operation and Development (OECD) the Greeks, who face a horrible economy, work more hours than any other Europeans. In Germany, an economic powerhouse, workers rank second to last in number of hours worked. Despite more time off, German workers are the eighth most productive in Europe, while the long-toiling Greeks rank 24 out of 25 in productivity. 
Beyond burnout, vanishing vacations make our relationships with families and friends suffer. Our health is deteriorating: depression and higher risk of death are among the outcomes for our no-vacation nation.



Stop feeling like a bad person for not wanting to work yourself to an early grave. Start holding capitalists accountable for killing the rest of us with unnecessary work. Don't let them convince you that not wanting to do an unnatural, unhealthy amount of work is a personal or moral failing. Do start leaving images of guillotines in the break room. 

Wednesday, October 16, 2019

Joe Biden Put His Sexism On Full Display During Debate

The debate last night was, for the most part, kind of dull and frustrating. A lot of the same questions were asked on the same subjects as though neither moderators nor candidates had learned anything in the past few weeks, especially on the issue of Medicare for All. You know, hOw WiLl YoU pAy FoR iT??

Then it ended with a ridiculous question about "friendship" that was a clear nod to the Ellen Degeneres/George W. Bush bullshit but didn't have time for questions on racism or climate change.

But the worse part by far was when Joe Biden snapped at Liz, yelling at her while attempting to take credit for her accomplishments.

Warren's reaction hit me deep right in a wound carried by so many women who have been screamed at by angry, entitled men.


Maybe I'm projecting, but I swear I can see a pain in Warren's eyes and hear it in her voice.

Apparently, Joe thought she as referencing him when she said "I had an idea for a consumer agency that would keep giant banks from cheating people, and all of the Washington insiders and strategic geniuses said ‘don’t even try because you will never get it passed.'"

From that and from context you could infer that Joe might be one of those Washington insiders, but he erased any doubt with his reaction. "I got votes for that bill." Yeah, that was your fucking job as Vice President. To get votes for bills that your party wanted to pass. But Liz did all the rest of the work in creating an entire new government bureau, which can not be easy.

Biden's sexism, which liberal men continue to try and excuse as a product of his time or just something we have to put up with, has real consequences and they were on full display last night. Biden tried to steal credit from Warren and yelled at her with aggressive hand gestures on stage while she was trying to make the case for why she should be the first female President in U.S. history. And every woman who has ever had a man take credit for her ideas/work and/or yell at her in a meeting had a flashback at that moment.

Liz, of course, had the perfect response, thanking Obama for his help rather than Biden. This suggests that Biden really wasn't much help and is also a jab at Biden constantly referencing his black friend for political points. But even as Joe and the audience laughed, you could see the pain on Warren's face. And then, Joe Biden made it somehow worse by INTERRUPTING Warren to say "you did a hell of a job in your job."

This to me says "stay in your place." It's one of those gross, backhanded "compliments" men toss at you after doing shit like taking credit for your work and you get angry about it. "You did a hell of a job at your job, now leave the rest to me, the man, even though you did all the legwork and I did the bare minimum of what is exactly my job."

And I again see the pause, the wheels turning in her head, and that pained tone as she said "thank you." Because she had to, right? Or she's a bitch.

And in the following words, that strain remains for a little while. But then she laid out exactly why she is the kind of progressive candidate we need, saying "no" to little, inconsequential, inoffensive to the rich and powerful establishment changes and going for something that actually helps the rest of us.

Fuck you, Joe Biden. If he gets the nomination I may give up on politics entirely. He was only made VP to appease moderate Dems and try to calm down the racists a bit after Obama was nominated. He doesn't deserve to be President while stronger women with better ideas exist. And there are plenty of them.

Tuesday, October 15, 2019

Gif of the Day


When you make eye contact with the asshole who kicked you off the bed because you wouldn't stop washing yourself in the middle of the night.

Live Tweeting Tonight's Democratic Debate

I missed the last one and I think the one before that I didn't really bother to live-tweet because it was like night two and who cares, but I'm going to another watch party tonight and I need a nap before that so I'm just gonna live-tweet that for content today. Let's see what new cracks on Donald Trump these candidates can get in with all the shit that has gone down in just the past couple of days.

Should be fun. See you there maybe.


Monday, October 14, 2019

Gif of the Day


Thank you, Janet.

Happy Indigenous People's Day!

Today is Indigenous People's Day in the city of Seattle and probably other places. We should all know by now that Columbus was a genocidal fuck who should be remembered alongside other genocidal fucks as history's greatest monsters and not have a Day named after him. With that over, here are some great ways you can stand with your local Native communities if you are white or generally not Native!

Someone made (and is still working on) an interactive map you can use to see whose tribal land you're living on if you live in the U.S. or other colonized countries. For example, I live just north of what is/should be the Duwamish border, on Puget Sound Salish/Snohomish land. The map includes a disclaimer that the borders may not be perfect and may not represent the real borders of indigenous tribes, and that local tribes should be contacted for official information on whose land you're living on.

It may be helpful for general educational purposes, and it's also nice to know which tribe you might support with your time, labor, and/or money while you're benefiting from living on their land. The Duwamish tribe, whose borders include Seattle, even has a "real rent" program that asks non-Native people living on their land to set up monthly recurring donations to the Duwamish Tribal Services. That way, it's like you're paying rent to them instead of your probably white landlords or to nobody if you own a home.

The difference is that it's voluntary and the Duwamish tribe simply encourages people to donate what they can based on their unique financial situation. So far, 2848 people in the Seattle area are Real Renters, which is great! I'm pretty sure that's up a good number from the last time I posted about Real Rent.

And, as always, please remind people not to appropriate indigenous cultures on Halloween. Just be Batman.

Friday, October 11, 2019

Gif of the Day


Belly!

Happy Friday

My current freelance situation allows me to enjoy the classic type of weekend that is Saturday and Sunday off and today I am very much eager to start fuckin' relaxing so your blog content today is going to be limited to a video of a bunch of burned MAGA hats with a "fuck Trump" sign on it and people chanting "Fuck Donald Trump" in a tweet made by some loser complaining about intolerance against hats.


WON'T SOMEBODY PLEASE THINK OF THE HATS.

Thursday, October 10, 2019

Gif of the Day


Redundant.

The Rich Have Class Unity, Do You?

You've probably heard of the controversy around Ellen Degeneres being buddies with George W. Bush after they were spotted sitting together at a sports game, smiling and chatting with each other. After the initial backlash, Ellen made things worse by going on her show and announcing to the world that she is indeed friends with the war criminal, chiding people for being upset about that, and for some reason comparing him to a furry.

Seriously, she said that she's also friends with other people she "disagrees" with, including furries and people she thinks should tweeze more.

Look. I understand having to interact with people who hold reprehensible beliefs and not having the courage or energy to be like "hey so why are you such a bad person." I could have even forgiven Ellen if she had apologized to all the queer people that George W. Bush hurt with his attempts to solidify homophobia into the U.S. Constitution who are also fans of the very lesbian Ellen, even though she 100% had the option of politely excusing herself and taking the fuck off in her private jet I'm sure she has.

But her monologue repeating the utterly exhausting and old "it's nice to be friends with people who have different opinions than you and I can't differentiate between opinions and actions that lead to the deaths of millions of civilians for some reason" argument was the final nail in her jewel-encrusted coffin.

There's really nothing new I can say about the general argument. There is a place for people who choose to continue friendships or even build friendships with people who have problematic or downright bigoted beliefs and "opinions" in an effort to guide them toward the light. But any defense of Ellen here immediately hits a wall made of millions of dead bodies, most of them Iraqi and other Middle Eastern civilians and some of them suicide victims thanks to Bush's crusade against same-sex marriage.

What I want to bring attention to is the idea of class unity. The following tweet hit me in the gut like a beanbag shot at me by militarized police:


"The rich have class unity, do you?"

Ellen's class (and white) privilege protected her from the atrocities committed by George W. Bush. Imagine being a family member or friend of someone who died because of Bush, maybe also being an Ellen fan, and seeing that video. Imagine having your home and life destroyed by the Bush administration and having to see him comfy and safe at a sports game chatting it up with celebrities, living an amazing life without facing justice for what he did to you while you continue to suffer.

Heck, I have plenty of privilege myself, but what Bush did to the economy, having a hand in the Great Recession that changed the entire job market, effectively ending any semblance of job security for the vast majority of people, has absolutely had a major impact on my life and the lives of people I love. And he gets to be friends with Ellen? And Ellen can't manage to give a shit about how that might make so many of us feel and just not be friends with a guy who thinks she shouldn't have been allowed to marry her wife?

But here's the thing. Rich people stick together. Like the white woman who voted for Trump aligning themselves to white supremacy at the expense of their gender, rich people will band together. Even those who might seem decent have much more in common with their fellow rich people than they do to the rest of us. They have no clue what we deal with or how we have to feel on a daily basis due to financial stress and instability.

Then a Tumblr mutual of mine posted this:






Check out all these rich famous people who also apparently can't tell the different between tweezing preferences and war crimes.

"Kill em with kindness" Orlando, unless you can bring millions of people back to life and un-obliterate entire towns and villages and un-traumatize millions of queer people with kindness, shut the fuck up.

The point is that rich people make friends with rich people and they don't much care what each one has done. They defend each other because they see themselves in each other. They know they might be the next rich famous fuck in trouble for chatting it up with horrible people and so they unite behind a bullshit message that they call "kindness" but is actually immensely cruel.

And so many of us non-rich rush to defend these people because, why? They've been in movies or made music we like? Because they're attractive and visible? They don't know you. They don't care about you. They have class unity while so many regular people throw themselves into defending these people who don't need your defense because they have money. So many people putting energy into defending these people when who really need defending are the poor and the vulnerable. The kids still being born with birth defects in Iraq due to all the toxins caused by U.S. bombs need friends and defenders, not Bush, not Ellen.

Rich people don't care about you. Aside from a couple people who have so far appeared to be exceptions, they don't care about you, and even those exceptions don't need you.

Do you have class unity? Are you looking out for the people who really need it? Are you defending those who suffer because rich people are hoarding all the money for themselves?

Because the rich do.

Wednesday, October 9, 2019

Gif of the Day


Dinner time for tiny neck here.

Feeling Good

Today I want to report that my efforts to be more social, go on more walks, and generally take care of my mental health are quickly showing positive results. I'm still having some anxiety around what to do with my leisure time, but this morning I thought about playing the Spiro the Dragon trilogy reboot and felt excitement rather than anxiety.

In general, I've been feeling better. Sometimes I've felt a bit overwhelmed with all the socializing, but I've pushed through and been okay. I'm really trying to not overdo it, but it is difficult because going slow like this also gives me anxiety.

I'm still not sure whether I'll be able to go back to any form of what used to be normal for me. Thinking about the rest of the week without any social plans just down made me feel a bit anxious. Sometimes I think I might end up filling my time up with stuff, if I can get used to it, because if that's what makes me feel best then why not?

I'm trying to go with the flow.

I read in that depression book that a study was done attempting to answer the simple question of "do people who consciously attempt to increase their happiness become happier?" Does trying to be happier work? What they found was that in the U.S., it doesn't work, but in other cultures, it does. They also found that in the U.S., people tend to pursue happiness by focusing on themselves and their own pleasure. In other areas of the world, people pursue happiness by helping others.

It threw me for a while as I wondered whether my current efforts to become happier would be useless or even counter-productive. I was also freaked out because previous efforts to get into activist organizing that involved going outside and interacting with people I didn't know were very difficult and stressful. But maybe it's more like when I thought I would reduce my stress by self-isolating and ended up with more stress and generally depressed.

I may not yet be at the point of being able to be a serious activist, but I do think socializing is helping, and I think that it won't be long before I feel good enough to take some concrete steps toward helping my community. Even if it's just picking up trash by myself or something.

But mostly, I want others to know that what I've been doing is helping me. You can improve your mental health, you can reduce your depression and anxiety, and being with other people is a big part of that. I'm so lucky to have amazing friends who have opened their arms and homes to me as I go through this. I look forward to spending time with them regularly, having a ton of fun, and building mutual relationships.

Also, I played Untitled Goose Game with said friends yesterday, and I can confirm that the slapping sounds of the goose feets alone are worth the $20.

Tuesday, October 8, 2019

Gif of the Day


Run, man, run!

(No I do not have any idea what is happening here.)

On World Mental Health Day, Abolish Fucking Capitalism

[TRIGGER WARNING: SUICIDAL IDEATION]

You might think of me as a radical. And I probably am. And obviously I'm okay with that. But I'm a radical because of the way I see people suffering every day. And today I'm just talking about people I know and personally care about, not even the people who are so much worse off than those in my social circles. But also, let's talk about them.

World Mental Health Day is this Thursday. The other day I wrote an article for work about how U.S. suicide rates are the highest they've been since the Great Depression. I've blogged before about how suicidal ideation among the younger generations has become so common that it's basically a running joke on Tumblr and other online spaces. Anxiety and depression on some level are practically a given.

I know far too many people personally who have dealt with an ongoing struggle with suicidal ideation. And it is always related to the hurdles that have been dumped in front of us by our society. Hurdles that have made it seem and continue to make it seem impossible to reach a state of stability and personal satisfaction - things we were pretty much told were a guarantee as long as we "worked hard" and got a college degree.

Some of the people I know have gotten over the worst of the hurdles, but not without immense struggle and pain. Others I know are still staring down hurdles that seem insurmountable. It's always directly related to work and/or going to school to get better work but the student loans and the exhaustion that comes from holding just one full-time job if not more.

And I mean, in terms of myself, my work currently fulfills the "personal satisfaction" bit, I think, but stability? As a freelancer? That's not really a thing. I could lose any of my clients at any time for any reason, and a chunk of my income with them. I can try to save up as much money as I can but apparently I'm killing the economy by doing so, and with the expenses related to not having a lot of money, it's not easy. I'm far from any kind of comfort zone in respect to savings right now.

And it's hardly better for people with normal jobs. Even the supposedly progressive Washington State is an at-will state, which basically means you can be fired at any time for any reason as long as your employer doesn't explicitly say that they're firing you for an illegal reason in a way that can be documented so you can hand the proof over to the proper authorities. It happens to people all the time.

Why do people think suicide rates are so high? Social media and smart phones might have something to do with it, but I've also seen them become lifelines to actively suicidal people. You want to know the real reason so many of us want to die all the time?

No stability. Soul-crushing jobs. Constant financial stress. Abuse from employers and customers without any path to justice or protection. No way out. No hope for the future.

I see centrists offering up small changes that might help some a little in the short term but minimum wage increases aren't even keeping up with rising rents and costs of living. Reducing tuition costs doesn't help people already drowning in so much debt that any more feels impossible, especially knowing that even a Master's or higher degree doesn't guarantee a better paying job, or a job at all.

As far as I'm concerned, this era could easily be called another Great Depression.

This is why I'm a radical. Because we need radical change. The entire system needs to change because even if we can somehow make a mass number of reforms to make things tolerable to most people, there will still be people left who are trapped like this and the system will continue to shift back to how it is now, and worse. Capitalism will always fight to go in this awful direction because that is its nature.

I don't think people in more comfortable positions understand just how much so many people are struggling and suffering right now. I see it every day and it breaks my heart every day. If you really care about suicide rates, you have to abolish capitalism. Nobody should have to suffer like this.

Monday, October 7, 2019

Gif of the Day


Clean the pawsies.

Supreme Court About To Decide If Queers Can Be Fired For Queerness

Oh boy, it sure is fun to have a bunch of old people including at least two serial sexual predators deciding whether or not you have basic rights, like the right to not be fired because of who you love or what your gender happens to be.

The Supreme Court's Transgender Employment Discrimination Case Could Decide My Future Because I'm Trans

At the center of the case is Aimee Stephens, a trans woman who was fired from her job at a funeral home after coming out as trans. According to the funeral home's supporters in the Trump administration’s Department of Justice and at the anti-LGBTQ+ Alliance Defending Freedom, her employer officially says that she was fired for refusing to adhere to the company’s dress code for “male” employees — i.e., that she was fired because she would no longer be presenting as a man.

The ACLU is calling this "one of the most important days in LGBTQ legal history," and it will be decided by a court that has been grossly stacked in the GOP's favor after actual Skesis Mitch McConnell blocked any Obama Supreme Court nominee from even being considered after Scalia died and rapist baby Brett Kavanaugh was voted on after a pathetically rushed and inadequate investigation into the sexual assault allegations brought by Dr. Ford, all after former Justice Anthony Kennedy suddenly and mysteriously decided to retire.

Swell.

Many LGBTQ+ celebrities and public figures have announced that they will be at the Supreme Court tomorrow to demonstrate for our rights. Unfortunately, courts are not supposed to be influenced by public opinion and no amount of queers on the court's steps will have any effect on the black holes in the chests of the conservative judges that exist where their hearts were supposed to.

I may be doing better emotionally but my faith in the U.S. government and legal system is still pretty much at zero.

Still, stranger things have happened that the Supreme Court, even a far-right one, ruling that you can't just fire the queers for being queer. If they don't, however, what say we all have the biggest, gayest party there ever was? And if some windows get smashed, that's just queers being queer. And if it should happen to notoriously homophobic companies, welp, what can you do?

Friday, October 4, 2019

Gif of the Day


I don't know why people saying "bees" as a question is so funny to me but it really, really is.

Jacob Wohl Clinches The 2020 Election For Elizabeth Warren: Unstoppable Sex Monster

Have you heard? Have you heard the good word?

This is, hands down, the funniest thing that has ever existed. You may have heard some mentions of some weird right-wing guy trying to start a sex scandal involving Elizabeth Warren. But let me tell you. This shit gets funnier the more details you learn.

A little background. Jacob Wohl has made a name for himself as the right's biggest fuckup of all time. Yes, bigger than Trump, bigger than Giuliani. He already had two failed attempts to pin sexual assault allegations on Robert Mueller and Pete Buttigieg under his belt. He is also the guy who was kicked off of Twitter because they caught him making sock puppet accounts to argue with.

Around the same time as his Twitter ban, he traveled to Minneapolis to "investigate" the racist as fuck conspiracy theory that Rep. Ilhan Omar married her brother. He claimed to have hired a ridiculous security contingent that appeared in none of his videos and tried to paint the city in Minnesota as some kind of lawless wasteland where he had to wear a bulletproof vest due to all the hitmen driving around. He then tried to present his "findings" at the Conservative Political Action Conference, but they wouldn't even let him in.

He then published a "documentary" on his little trip which contained footage of him filing a police report about death threats that came from a Twitter account that, you guessed it, was one of the fake sock puppet ones he made himself! Then he got sued by the guy whose photo he stole for the account.

I've been trying to make right-wingers look bad for 10+ years and but nothing I've written can hold a candle to what Jacob Wohl has done.

Okay, so, Elizabeth Warren. On Wednesday, Wohl and his loyal sidekick Jack Burkman sent out a "media alert" claiming to have "bombshell" evidence of an affair between the Senator, now the Democratic frontrunner, and a young Marine of age 24 or 25. This was allegedly when the Marine was a sex worker who I guess was found by Warren through a specific escort service.

Now, what with Wohl's, ahem, reputation, nobody was expecting this to be anything credible.

But nobody could have predicted how funny it could be.

Not only to Wohl and Burkman have a guy claiming to be this Marine, they are and have him saying that the two of them had wild BDSM-type sex, with Warren hitting the Marine with a cat o' nine tails and leaving scars on his back. In their sparsely populated "press conference," they also said that she had a sexual relationship with a woman at some point and fucked her with, and I am not exaggerating or joking in any way, a lime green strap-on dildo.

The video of the "press conference" is fucking breathtaking.


What's your favorite part? Wohl's inability to keep himself from laughing at his own made-up allegations? The hired security guard's repeatedly ignoring their commands to remove someone from the "crowd," if it can be called that? The guy at the end saying he's switching his vote from Bernie to Liz because "she fucks"? Or just the constant mocking laughter from the crowd?

Other details from people who were there are also hilarious:


Here's a photo of the whole crowd, by the way:


Meanwhile, Jack Burkman, who is still on Twitter, has issued this ultimatum to Liz that includes the name of the Marine, which is "Kelvin."


The comments are extremely worth looking through.

If there was any doubt in your mind that this entire thing is bullshit, not that it really matters as long as everyone was consenting and considering the shit we all know Trump has done, this clown brigade has already been caught in an obvious lie. One of the scars that Kelvin said was given to him by Liz? Welp:


"Hit my back with a chain trying to take down a swing," he wrote. And yes, that is a tattoo from that Vin Diesel movie "XXX." So clearly this guy has no shame.

But the much funnier bit of evidence that this is all bullshit is the fact that reporters contacted the escort service they're claiming Kelvin worked for and company representative said that Kelvin wasn't good enough to work there.




IT'S. TOO. FUNNY.

All of this is so clearly going to boost Warren's name recognition and poll numbers that I find myself wondering if Wohl and Burkman aren't some kind of deep cover liberal agents determined to get her elected in 2020. I mean. The jokes just keep coming.




Elizabeth Warren even got a pretty funny joke referencing this whole circus act and them calling her a "cougar."


Honestly, how can I support any other candidate now? Elizabeth Warren 2020. She fucks.

Thursday, October 3, 2019

Gif of the Day


Today's gif is courtesy of some random awful conservative on Facebook spreading lies about overdose victims and Narcan, which is a drug that halts overdoses and is a nasal spray that anyone can easily deploy and also you can get it for cheap at any pharmacy and carry it with you in case someone around you suffers an overdose! Thank you, horrible lady.

Feels update

I often look back on my time in college as an ideal for how life should be. I honestly think that my happiness during that time contributes to my current depression in a way and has contributed to discontent for all the years since graduation. I can never go back to that time but there are some key aspects of that period that clue me in to what makes me happy. First of all, I had a very solid safety net. At the time, my parents were doing well financially and I knew I could go to them if I needed help. Another huge thing was that I had so much hope for the future.

Being the naive liberal I was then, I'd thought that Obama's election to the presidency meant things had really changed. I didn't think they would ever recover, I thought the people of this country would pull away from them over how completely ridiculous they became over the election of a Black man. Aside from all that wrongness, I thought the economy would recover and go back to the way it was in the 90's, and I thought I had a rich and interesting future ahead of me that would not involve existential threats to the survival of the human species. I never would have guessed that we'd have anything close to the bullshit we have today.

Lack of hope for the future is a huge aspect of depression, but it's hard to have much. I'm not in complete despair, but it's hard to imagine that things won't get worse before they get better, and I'm afraid they never will get better. I don't look upon the future with complete despair anymore, but I look upon it with fear.

And that probably has a lot to do with why I'm so restless and anxious lately. I have been doing better, I've felt tastes of joy and dang, October is the best month. I love early fall and when I think of snuggling up in a soft blanket with some hot cocoa and watching Halloween Wars, I feel good. When I actually do that, I still feel this needling in the back of my brain that tells me I should be playing some kind of video game at the same time or else I'm not really enjoying myself. Still can't shake that, but I'm trying to do more of one recreational activity at a time.

I've also been doing a good job with reaching out and socializing more. And I'm pretty sure it's a good thing that I've been feeling so much, even if some of the feelings are uncomfortable, like anxiety and anger at Jeremy Clarkson. I'm happy with my decision to blog once per weekday unless I'm not feeling it, like I wasn't on Monday. I even had a moment today where I really, truly felt like being around people = good.

But it does suck knowing that it's going to be a serious uphill battle to ever feel as happy as I did in college because my safety net is much thinner and because my hope for the future is very weak. Without a sense of security or real hope, I don't know that I'll ever be able to gain a feeling of contentment and peace that's anything like what I had before. And it sucks because I know that we could give hope and security to everyone on this planet if we really wanted to and invested in that instead of death machines and feeding the endless money void that is the mega-rich.

I will also never stop resenting the fact that I have no choice but to work to make someone else money for a fraction of the profit my labor produces. Even homelessness becomes less of an option as the people of this country turn on those who have almost nothing.

I'm taking things day by day but I'm afraid my happiness level can only max out at "meh" with the way the world is right now. Part of me hopes something just absolutely ridiculous goes down that will at least bring all of us struggling people together in revolution because that's the only way I see things changing enough to avert serious disaster.

Sometimes I think about the current average human life expectancy and just feel exhausted. Nearly 50 more years? That is so many.

And yet at the same time, I feel this constant nagging sense of urgency as though my time is short. I'm not sure the human brain was ready to deal with the level of bullshit we've managed to heap upon it.

Oh well. I think I'll go play some Overwatch. Because I'm actually writing this at 8:30 pm two days ago. Scheduling blog posts ahead of time counts.

Wednesday, October 2, 2019

Gif of the Day


Accurate representation of entitled rich white men getting their asses handed to them daily.

World's Most Entitled White Man Calls Greta Thunberg "Spoilt"

You might not know this about me, but I am in fact a fan of the British car show "Top Gear," which is now no more for reasons very relevant to this post, as well as the current Amazon car show with the same hosts, "The Grand Tour." I don't actually have any interest in cars at all other than their ability to get me where I need to go, but I do find the antics of the three hosts to be quite hilarious.

This is unfortunate because all of the hosts are middle-aged white men with the kind of entitlement you'd expect from men of that type who are also rich and famous. In particular, Jeremy Clarkson is and has been a MASSIVE ASSHOLE who makes me ashamed to enjoy his shows, even if I do view it via totally definitely legal means that also happen to not funnel any money or ratings to said shows. Cough.

Anyway, as though Clarkson didn't already have a massive list of reasons to think him a completely shitty human being (seriously the "controversies" section of his Wikipedia page is LONG), he decided to pen an entire article for The Sun (already a reason to facepalm) that just directly attacks 16-year-old Greta Thunberg for not being nice to adults who have maybe doomed her entire future.

“Many thousands of people who you had the temerity to blame this week are trying to do exactly what you want. So be a good girl, shut up and let them get on with it. And no. You cannot stay out past ten. And you cannot go out in a skirt that short.”


Lots of horrible adults have attacked Thunberg, but it takes a special kind of asshole to insert gross misogyny and sexualization of a minor into his attacks on a 16-year-old.

I already wrote on this for work but I of course had to hold back on what I really wanted to say, though I did get to include a bunch of tweets pointing out that this was the guy who was fired from Top Gear and got the show cancelled because he PUNCHED A STAFF MEMBER who told him that the hotel chef had gone home and he couldn't have steak. But I can say whatever I want on my blog, so here it is.

Fuck you, Jeremy Clarkson, you nasty, bigoted, awful, entitled man who is a fetus in maturity level compared to Greta Thunberg. You are an irrelevant old man and the only reason The Sun let you write a column is because your unearned privilege allowed you to make a TV show that honestly probably contributed to climate change far more than you would have if it had never existed, and also because it's a shitty tabloid that no one respects. Your show needs to be illegal and you probably know this deep down. You also probably know that no one likes you as a person anymore because you have proven yourself to be a complete baby who makes the world a worse place wherever you go and that's why you're so bitter that you feel the need to shit all over a teenage girl who makes your balls shrivel up when she talks. I hope somebody gives you the ass kicking you so sorely deserve.

Oh, also, his own daughter took him to task for attacking a child AND for being a misogynist, so there's that.


I'd say this was rock bottom for you, Jeremy, but I'll reserve that in the hope someone does kick your ass for being a racist, misogynistic, ableist, homophobic, transphobic piece of shit.

I hope Amazon fires him but they obviously suck too so I'm not gonna hold my breath.

Tuesday, October 1, 2019

Gif of the Day


I love how the pupils start out as so small I mistook the black around the iris for the pupils. Cat eyes are amazing.

Rich People Are Spoiled AND Shit's Too Expensive

Okay so another of these ridiculous articles that's like "LOOK HOW HARD THESE RICH FUCKS HAVE IT" is going around and man am I tired of that old story already, or at least I'm tired of responding in the same way. So, not that they deserve it, but I'm gonna utilize a bit of empathy here and talk about why people who make over 10 times more in a year than I do are like this.

No empathy for this kiss-ass Market Watch headline, though.

This budget shows how a $350,000 salary barely qualifies as middle class

Can you just take your head out of that rich people asshole for a second, Shawn? Okay cool.

The real headline might be something like "Rich People Have Ridiculously High Living Standards But Also This Country Is Fucked And Has No Middle Class Anymore" or something along those lines. Market Watch isn't paying me so.

Anyway, the tweet showing this rich people budget is going around Twitter.


Yeah, so, a lot of this family's supposed money problems could be solved by fucking downsizing on that house. What kind of ridiculous house do they have that the mortgage payment is that high?

The problem is that as people get more money and use it to buy more stuff, their standards for living increase without them really noticing, and anything lesser suddenly feels unacceptable. Luxuries become necessities. This is probably a mix of some kind of human psychology combined with a heavily capitalist society that worships things and lives on convincing people to fill that void with more shit. I can't blame rich people for having that void or being affected by society but neither can I blame anybody laughing at the "money problems" of this "struggling" family.

Like do you really have to buy a new crib every month? What are you doing.

But I'm also wondering why so many rich people are so against our government doing anything to actually help the people if this family thinks it's "struggling"? This family could save a whole lot of money with that universal free preschool instead of paying fucking $2,000 per month for one child. Free childcare could save them even more, if they would deign to use it. Those healthcare costs actually seem pretty average, but it should be nothing. And, of course, they could save a lot of money if college was free, and I'm guessing they're sending their kids to private school which I really can't blame people for when our public primary schools are so worthless right now.

Of course, if they're so strapped, you'd think they could go a single month without buying their two kids shit loads of new clothes from Old Navy. I get that kids grow fast but $400 every month? WTF?

Also, if you actually read the article, it's worse.

“Unfortunately, despite making $350,000 a year, this couple will be unable to retire before 60 because they aren’t building an after-tax investment portfolio to generate passive income,” Dogen wrote. “In order for this couple to achieve financial independence, they need to accumulate a net worth equal to at least 25 times their annual expenses — or 20 times their annual gross income.”

They won't be able to retire before 60?????? It's almost as if they're POORS.


Seriously. Rich people live in a completely different world.

Friday, September 27, 2019

Gif of the Day


Oh, kittens.

Here's What I Think On The Impeachment Thing

It's been quite a week. Democrats finally launched an impeachment inquiry after a whistleblower exposed possible bribery/quid pro quo by Trump to Ukraine officials, promising a return of funding in exchange for digging up dirt on Joe Biden related to a conspiracy theory that was debunked a while ago.

In a practical sense, I think that maybe Democrats were waiting to begin impeachment proceedings closer to the 2020 election and will try to drag it out as close as they can to next November to maximize their chances of getting Trump the fuck out of there. This makes sense because while impeachment would quite likely happen if they held a vote today, the Republican-controlled Senate is the body that would have to vote whether to convict and remove Trump from office. That is unlikely.

I could be wrong, but it makes sense to me. I'm also not saying that is the right thing to do in a moral sense. I'm not saying I agree with Democrats on this path and I certainly still don't like or trust establishment Dems.

There are some things throwing wrenches into what makes sense to me. I am surprised that any Republicans have come out in favor of impeachment. I am very surprised that Mitch McConnell allowed a vote to release the whistleblower complaint and that all Senate Republicans voted yes. That has me very suspicious. Those fuckers are scheming. They're planning something.

As for the whistleblower thing, I'm seeing some leftists complain that Democrats didn't try to impeach when the administration brought back concentration camps or did any of the other horrific things they've done over the past two years and nine months, and claiming that they're only impeaching now because Trump went after Joe Biden.

The thing is that shit like throwing migrants into concentration camps is not and has never been considered an impeachable offense. And maybe that is the point of some leftists but I think it's worth spelling it out. This country is so fucked up that demands to impeach Trump on the basis of concentration camps was laughed off.

I also don't deny that Democrats are absolutely much more apt and eager to defend the rich white male members of their party than poor people of color. But I think claiming this is just about protecting Joe Biden is off because the conspiracy theory against Joe is complete bunk (there are plenty of real reasons not to elect him anyway) so he doesn't need protection from that, plus Trump has come after Trump and other establishment Dems over and over for his entire time in office. I think it's more likely that this is about timing and the whistleblower complaint was a good opportunity.

I also think it has a lot to do with the fact that this really is a serious infraction. It is a pretty clear case of quid pro quo, which is a classic reason for impeachment.

In a better world, Trump would have been literally disqualified from running for President on the basis of his clear, constant racism. But let's not obscure what is the likely truth. I dunno, it bugged me for some reason. I just don't think this is only about Trump coming after Joe and I think it's probably not much of a reason, if any.

Part of me also honestly hopes that, even though the conspiracy theory about Joe is very likely untrue, people believe it a little and it hurts his presidential run. That might be kind of fucked up but I want those concentration camps closed and I don't trust Biden to do it.

To be more honest, I'm actually a little excited to see how this plays out, and part of me dreams of the day Trump announces his resignation. And I know I KNOW Mike Pence is also terrible, maybe even more so in some ways, but god damn, that would be satisfying. I'm also convinced that Pence won't be able to win if Republicans force Trump to resign. It will enrage the Trump fans and Pence is still plenty awful enough to get centrists out to vote against him.

Whew. Really, anything could happen. I lost faith in my ability to predict shit after Election Day 2016. We'll just have to wait and see how this plays out. Hold on to your butts.

Thursday, September 26, 2019

Gif of the Day


You might have to click on that to make it bigger but that is that gif of the guy stabbing the mannequin thing over and over really fast and this is hilarious to me for some reason.

I Love You All

[TRIGGER WARNING: SUICIDE]

Today has been something. I almost lost a friend to suicide but thankfully she's okay, and seems to be getting help. She's an online friend who lives across the country so I can't be with her physically, which sucks, but I'm just so glad she's alive and okay.

At the same time this morning I got a now-deleted comment on a random gif of the day, the one with the bird who wants to stay in the human's hand, which was like an entire article on why some old women can't get dates and how they can get past that for some man-love. He apparently assumed I was old, which, like, I'm 31 now so it depends on your perspective but I am not actually out of child-bearing range, at least, dude, lmao.

It didn't bother me, it was just so weird and funny. You'd think it would at least be on a blog post about one of those very old ladies who credit their long lives on avoiding men.

Anyway, it's been a very emotional day but I want to say that I'm doing well, I'm doing better in general, I'm pretty sure. Someone suggested to me last night after I expressed that I was feeling a lot of unusually intense anxiety and anger that it could be a sign of depression lifting, and I think they might be right. Either way it feels like that psychic wall I've talked about that keeps my emotions back without my permission has fallen or weakened, and that is a very good thing, even though it's uncomfortable for now.

I've also been telling my friends that I appreciate and love them, and if I missed you it's only because I've been doing it haphazardly kind of on impulse. But I just love all my friends and I really want to love everybody like some kind of Nick Jr. cartoon character, okay? Weird commenter guy who thinks I'm old and need a man, I'm glad you're alive.

At the same time, if you've ever attempted suicide, I sincerely hope you don't feel guilty or like a bad person for doing that. It's not your fault. None of us can endure an unlimited amount of emotional pain and despair, and we all have a different threshold for reasons largely outside of our control. I love you if you've attempted, I love you if you've thought about it, I love you if you've completely suicide and can't read this, or maybe you can, who knows?

I'm going to spend some time celebrating life today and I hope you all do, too. Thanks for existing.

Me @ you right now:


Wednesday, September 25, 2019

Gif of the Day


"Fly free!"

"Nah, hand warm."

Bystander Saves Man From Forced Deportation

If you're anything like me and constantly wondering what you can do as a tiny insignificant individual against the massive fascist machine imprisoning and deporting migrants to their deaths, check out this incredible hero, Mohammad Ali Musawi.




Don't be like the white passengers literally covering their ears to try and pretend a massive injustice that could easily lead to a man's death and the devastation of his family is happening. You can simply stand up to prevent a place from taking off. Musawi might not have saved this man forever, but he did what he could.

I know we're all a little embarrassed by the hero fantasies we have (let's be honest, we all do it), but I encourage everyone to vividly imagine doing this in this situation over and over, particularly if you regularly fly. You can also apply this to bus situations in which CBP agents board demanding to see papers. In that case, imagine standing up and loudly informing your fellow passengers of their rights, then loudly refusing to hand over any identification to the fascist thugs.

The point is, stand up. If it helps, and let's be honest, it probably does, think about how many Twitter followers you could gain telling the story. Also, follow Musawi.

Stop all deportations.

Tuesday, September 24, 2019

Gif of the Day


Guess who's getting his ass impeached? I credit Greta Thunberg for the curse she put on him in this exact moment.

Fatties Against Fascism: Antifa Tank Division

This story is a month old but I just found it and holy shit I am in love!!!

Fatties Against Fascism Rise Up to Close The Camps

I am only like, mildly to moderately fat and I am able-bodied and do not require a scooter so I don't think I can officially be in the tank division but fuck yes I am joining fatties against fascism. This combines three of my favorite things: Body acceptance, fighting fascism, and taking bigotry from fascists and using it to empower an entire group of people to kick fascist ass.

Even with all my years of fat activism, the trolls had managed to hook my shame. But there is an immunity we build when we do this together. Going out together is self protection. Doing this work together is building our resilience and immunity. When I kept it to myself, I was in a state of shame. When I shared it with others, I remembered that together we are so powerful. Acting together is our medicine against shame.

Me right now:



I just. I love all of this. So much.

Monday, September 23, 2019

Gif of the Day


Omg baby.

Greta Thunberg is the Person I Want To Be

You've probably heard of Greta Thunberg by now, but if not, she's the 16-year-old climate activist who now travels the world (often by electric speedboat because she refuses to fly) yelling at adults for failing to act on climate change and possibly dooming us all to a sweaty death.

Like literally, she is not holding back anymore. Be warned, she is crying while she speaks and if you're anything like me the following video will make you cry, too.



The way she stares bitterly at the crowd while they applaud her calling them a bunch of fucking monsters for doing nothing while people suffer and die from climate change is just, fucking hell, Greta. You are everything I want to be and you're SIXTEEN.

Greta Thunberg breaks my heart over and over and over again. She is 16 and she has Asperger's syndrome and, as she says in the above heartbreaking, brutal, tearful and tear-inducing speech, she should be in school getting an education so she can live out her dreams. It makes me think that I or maybe even someone older, more privileged, with money and mental health should be up there doing what she's doing, but for some reason it's her. She does it because she's furious and heartbroken herself because we adults have failed her and possibly ended her dreams before they began.

She breaks my heart but she also inspires me. I'm going on a walk for her today. I'm meditating for her today. I'm fighting to get better for her so that I can have the strength to fight for her, alongside her, behind or in front of her, whatever she wants. She is a real life Disney princess and YA novel hero, and she would probably tell me to go fuck myself (in so many words) for saying that instead of taking action and I would say "YES MA'AM GRETA MA'AM."

Fuck us up, Greta.

Full transcript of her speech below, courtesy of NPR:

"My message is that we'll be watching you.

"This is all wrong. I shouldn't be up here. I should be back in school on the other side of the ocean. Yet you all come to us young people for hope. How dare you!

"You have stolen my dreams and my childhood with your empty words. And yet I'm one of the lucky ones. People are suffering. People are dying. Entire ecosystems are collapsing. We are in the beginning of a mass extinction, and all you can talk about is money and fairy tales of eternal economic growth. How dare you!

"For more than 30 years, the science has been crystal clear. How dare you continue to look away and come here saying that you're doing enough, when the politics and solutions needed are still nowhere in sight.

"You say you hear us and that you understand the urgency. But no matter how sad and angry I am, I do not want to believe that. Because if you really understood the situation and still kept on failing to act, then you would be evil. And that I refuse to believe.

"The popular idea of cutting our emissions in half in 10 years only gives us a 50% chance of staying below 1.5 degrees [Celsius], and the risk of setting off irreversible chain reactions beyond human control.

"Fifty percent may be acceptable to you. But those numbers do not include tipping points, most feedback loops, additional warming hidden by toxic air pollution or the aspects of equity and climate justice. They also rely on my generation sucking hundreds of billions of tons of your CO2 out of the air with technologies that barely exist.

"So a 50% risk is simply not acceptable to us — we who have to live with the consequences.

"To have a 67% chance of staying below a 1.5 degrees global temperature rise – the best odds given by the [Intergovernmental Panel on Climate Change] – the world had 420 gigatons of CO2 left to emit back on Jan. 1st, 2018. Today that figure is already down to less than 350 gigatons.

"How dare you pretend that this can be solved with just 'business as usual' and some technical solutions? With today's emissions levels, that remaining CO2 budget will be entirely gone within less than 8 1/2 years.

"There will not be any solutions or plans presented in line with these figures here today, because these numbers are too uncomfortable. And you are still not mature enough to tell it like it is.

"You are failing us. But the young people are starting to understand your betrayal. The eyes of all future generations are upon you. And if you choose to fail us, I say: We will never forgive you.

"We will not let you get away with this. Right here, right now is where we draw the line. The world is waking up. And change is coming, whether you like it or not.

"Thank you."

Friday, September 20, 2019

Gif of the Day



Do the communism dance! Yeah!!

So Here's How I'm Doing

I've been feeling pretty strange this week. Not necessarily depressed, but things are just so different. Things changed so suddenly. I'm still having a lot of random anxiety at the idea of doing things I used to enjoy. I'm trying to just let myself have my feelings and let them pass on. I'm not trying to force myself to play video games while watching TV. I then also have anxiety, mostly in the form of a low-level sense of urgency/uneasiness because I still feel like I'm not "maximizing" my downtime. Then my brain starts thinking that I should at least watch something educational or something, and that idea makes me anxious, so long story short I've been watching a lot of Bob's Burgers.

I'm trying to get my brain to realize that my downtime is just that - downtime. I need rest. And if that means just sitting on the couch watching a show I've watched 5,000 times then so be it. I'm also trying to assure myself that I've playing the long game. Everything I'm doing, including resting, is part of the long-term plan to gradually improve my mental health until I can be of more use to the movement.

In some ways, I have a lot of patience. In other ways, I have very little. I'm trying.

I still don't understand how so many otherwise normal people can be so cruel to those who are already suffering and have nothing. The growing hatred against the homeless is further convincing me that nothing much has changed in recent human history. I guess humanity in general is one of those things I don't have much patience for. But it's real hard to be patient with white suburban middle class ladies actively campaigning to fuck over the homeless. And now Trump is playing for their votes by saying he'll lock them all up. So I guess we really haven't improved since the 1800's. At least not us white people.

On the other hand, I've regained a little hope that things could get better. Maybe even a little peace at the idea of human extinction. And I'm glad it's almost fall.

I hope every one of you fuckers has an awesome weekend unless you're a NIMBY piece of shit. Kisses.

Thursday, September 19, 2019

Gif of the Day


Smooth as fuck.

Meet the Man Whose Life Was "Ruined" By a Sexual Assault Allegation

You might have seen the sob story going around about serial sexual predator Harvey Weinstein claiming his life has been "ruined" by the #MeToo movement. As a beautiful and talented friend pointed out to me on Facebook, although the predator's net worth is only a fraction of what it used to be, he still has $50 million to his name. So he'll be just fine. Maybe he can't make movies like he used to but he could live out the rest of his days in luxury, while many of his victims can not.

But that's not the man that the headline is talking about. I'm talking about the man interviewed by sociology PhD candidate Nicole Bedera, who illustrated exactly how much this sexual predator's life had NOT been ruined by the multiple sexual assault accusations against him. In fact, the allegations arguably improved his life.


The thread is pretty long, but here's perhaps the worst part:



This guy actually got fucking laid by using the accusations to gain sympathy. In-fucking-credible.

Also:



There will hopefully come a time when sexual predators face actual consequences for their actions and we may need to talk about the possibility of restorative justice if we can ever figure out how to rehabilitate sexual predators. But in 2019, sexual predators, especially rich white men, continue to have massive advantages over their victims and can live their lives as normal, if not better, when caught.

So please stuff your sob stories directly up your asses and fuck off forever.