Hey folks. I'm going to be taking this week off from blogging. I'm having to quit a part time job I otherwise quite liked (and me liking a job is a very rare thing) because I realized I just can't be responsible for lives, even animal lives, at 50 cents over minimum wage. It's too fucked up. And now that this is in my head, I know I won't be able to get it out. I can see into my future if I try to stay, and it's easier just to quit now. Before I kill someone's cat.
But I'm attached to my coworkers and yes, I'm attached to several cats. It feels like a loss and I feel like I'm going through a mourning period. I gave two weeks of notice, not because capitalist bosses deserve it and not because I'm looking for a reference, but because I want time to say goodbye. I guess because if I quit without notice, I think they'll all hate me. I doubt they're all filthy commies like me.
Anyway, I didn't mean to write all that out, because what do I care if you know why I'm taking a break? But I guess I needed to.
I also need to take some time to think about what I've been doing in terms of my activism. I've been having a really hard time getting myself to go to any in-person events, meetings, rallies, or any of those very important aspects of social justice activism. I feel like I should be able to, but my mental resistance is intense. I need to admit to myself that I'm just spinning my wheels and exhausting myself while helping nobody. I need to address the mental block first. The question is how.
I'm also considering trying to get myself a corporate writing job, just so I can get some of the things I need. My significant other and I need a second car. We need to repair or replace our current car, soon, as well. I might need a new laptop soon. Our rent is going up again, but if we're going to move somewhere more affordable, we'll probably need first, last, and security deposits, because fucking landlords.
So that's everything that's stressing me the fuck out! That and the new rise of fascism. And then I'm like "why aren't I sleeping well?"
I'll be back next week, folks. Thanks for reading.