Friday, July 20, 2018

Gif of the Day

Did you forget about this video of the tiny kitten struggling with the bowl of milk?

Never forget.

Recommended Reading


A friend sent me this article, published yesterday, on the man who stabbed his father to death on Samish Island over alt-right conspiracy theories 70 miles from where I live.

Alt-Right Troll To Father Killer: The Unraveling Of Lane Davis

It's an incredible story of a man desperate to find a reason to live, finding it in wild right-wing and white supremacist conspiracy theories, and murdering his own father when he was told to either get help or move out.

The most incredible parts are how alt-right "celebrities" or whatever you call them, I guess exploiters of false outrage for money, used the man and then tossed him aside multiple times, including up to and after the murder. The article explains exactly how the owners and employees of the "Ralph Retort," a fairly well-known website in the alt-right fake outrage exploitation market, goaded Lane into increasingly intense rages and then denounced him as a "loser" after hearing of the murder. They also, of course, denied any and all responsibility for helping to radicalize him and encouraging the beliefs and desperation that led directly to the murder.

They went straight to the "it's just a joke" shit. [Ableist language ahead.]

“Lane Davis was a 33-year-old unemployed loser who lived with his parents and had no income to speak of. The man he murdered is the sole reason he was able to subsist at all. He had some volatile anger issues which are evident in the many YouTube streams he’s been present on. He’s also made threats and wild unfounded accusations against a lot of people over the past few years. I thought it was all in jest, but hindsight is always 20-20.”
If the Ralphs felt guilt over the killing, though, they felt an equal amount of anger and bewilderment. It astounded them that Lane had been serious all along. No one could really believe, they thought, in a Marxist plot to enforce pedophilia with antifa shock troops.
“He completely ruined his life with some stupid internet shit,” Ralph said. “He didn’t get the game.”
“I watch Alex Jones,” Nora told me. “To me, that’s entertainment. We don’t really think the frogs are gay. I don’t think the protein powder works. I never thought some people watch this stuff and are like, yes, this is hard-hitting journalism. I thought most of us could distinguish between entertainment and facts. I never really thought people were stupid enough to get caught up in this stuff.”

You did, you do, and you exploit that for money.

What a lot of people don't realize is how many of these highly visible "alt-right" assholes are just exploiting fake news and false right-wing outrage for money. And in doing so, they're further radicalizing the many, many people who believe all this conspiracy shit and pushing some of them to violence and murder.

But they're such assholes that they don't care if people die in their pursuit of views and clicks. If Ralph really did feel guilty for a second, he brushed it off with the same "it's just a joke" bullshit that these Schrodinger's Assholes have to deflect responsibility for the violence they incite that they've used for several years now.

This is the same Ralph Retort guy who spread photos of a woman to get her fired from Nintendo because maybe she had a side gig as a sex worker. None of that was a joke. She really did get harassed, she really did get fired, she really did get shamed by hundreds of whorephobic pieces of shit. He has blood on his hands and as far as I'm concerned he can choke on it.

None of this is to say that Lane bears no responsibility for his own actions. But the Ralphs and friends contributed a lot to the circumstances leading directly to the murder. Yet they go on with their website and new YouTube series, interviewing Richard Spencer and other white supremacists.

They should be in jail with Lane.

Wednesday, July 18, 2018

Cops and Klan Go Hand in Hand


One of the fucked up things that the Bothell Police sergeant said to me while trying to convince me not to file a complaint against the Bothell Police was that 99% of cops are good people. That is very hard for me to believe considering how many articles and videos about cops doing fucked up shit I see on a literal daily basis.

Some of them like this:

Jasper police officers suspended for 'white power' hand symbol in post-arrest photo


Jasper Mayor David O'Mary told in an email the officers have been suspended from the narcotics team. 
"The Civil Service Board has a say in what happens relative to compensation loss. We feel it is within the powers of the Mayor to impose a five day loss of pay," O'Mary said in an email. "In addition we will require some diversity training."

Five days pay for brazenly giving that new white power symbol in a photo in their police gear.

And of course people are trying to claim that the symbol in question is "just a joke," as though it's not utterly fucked up to joke about racist hate symbols, about the "white power movement," and as though the 4chan fucks who use that are anything better than Schrödinger's Assholes who conveniently say it's a joke when it could get them into trouble but have become completely indistinguishable from 100% proud white supremacists.

In other words, people who use that symbol are just white supremacists who go on 4chan in their spare time, which does not make them better than white supremacists who don't go on 4chan in their spare time. Also, some of those people are cops! Who get to keep their fucking jobs after outing themselves as white supremacists who go on 4chan.

I really wish I didn't have to live on this world.

Tuesday, July 17, 2018

Gif of the Day

Hot damn, those are some TEEFS.

Headline of the Month

I knew it wouldn't be long before I found a use for that new gif.

Trump says he meant to say the exact opposite of what he said about Russia’s election meddling

When he was onstage beside Putin in Helsinki, Finland, on Monday, Trump said about election meddling, “I have President Putin. He just said it's not Russia. I will say this: I don't see any reason why it would be. So I have great confidence in my intelligence people, but I will tell you that President Putin was extremely strong and powerful in his denial today.” 
But after major backlash, Trump told reporters Tuesday that he has full confidence in the U.S. intelligence community’s assessment that the Russians did, in fact, meddle in the election. Trump said he was originally flummoxed by the press’ reaction to his comments, and that when he requested a transcript, he realized he’d made a critical mistake. 
“I realize that there is a need for some clarification,” Trump said. “In a key sentence in my remarks, I said the word ‘would’ instead of ‘wouldn’t.'"

Uh huh.

A mistake in one very key word doesn't explain the rest of what he said. You know, "So I have great confidence in my intelligence people, but I will tell you that President Putin was extremely strong and powerful in his denial today."

The key word there being BUT, and also finding any excuse to call Putin "strong and powerful."

And, you know. Everything else he's said. All the other times he's licked Putin's asshole.

So when is his treason trial already?

Elon Musk is the Actual Worst


I talk a lot of shit about Bezos, and don't get me wrong, Bezos is a horrible person who is sucking resources out of the Earth and hoarding it as ever more people die of starvation. But have you heard about Elon Musk?

The Tesla billionaire has been getting increasingly bad press lately, but this takes the fucking cake:

Now, you know me. I take accusations like this very seriously, no matter where they come from. But Elon Musk made it 100% clear that he just threw this out there to try and drag a hero's name through the mud. Why? Because said hero told Musk to shove his bullshit submarine PR attempt up his ass.

63-year-old British caver Vern Unsworth, who according to CNN played an instrumental role in rescuing the team, criticized Musk in an interview with the network this week for his attempted involvement in the mission. As the saga was unfolding, Musk said that his companies SpaceX and the Boring Company would help rescue the boys. He proposed creating an “air tunnel underwater.” Musk also had engineers from SpaceX and Tesla build and test a mini submarine for the boys to escape, but it was never used. 
Unsworth in an interview with CNN said Musk’s submarine was “just a PR stunt” and had “absolutely no chance” of working. “He can stick his submarine where it hurts,” he said.

And so Elon Musk threw a tantrum like the baby he is.

Musk reacted to Unsworth’s assessment in a series of tweets. He said he “never saw this British expat guy” and mentioned a rescue video that he said could refute his remarks. But then Musk went a step further, saying not to “bother” showing the video and calling Unsworth a “pedo guy” — as in, accusing him of being a pedophile.

Did he follow up with any kind of explanation for the accusation? I'm not about to demand "evidence" like an asshole but you can't just casually throw that out there. What is the basis of your statement? Do we need to try and get this diver guy arrested?

Lol nope.

When a fellow Twitter user pointed out the accusation Musk had lobbed, the South African entrepreneur responded, “Bet ya a signed dollar it’s true.”

WOW okay so let's see if I have this straight. You threw out a pedophilia accusation against a man who played a big part in rescuing 20 kids from a horrible death, then when people asked for more information, you straight up admit that you made it up, you pulled it out of your ass, by saying you "bet it's true."

And why? Why do you bet it's true? Are you implying that anyone who would make an effort to save a bunch of kids from a horrible death must be doing it because they want to fuck children? And since you were "trying" to save them, too, does that make you a pedophile? Or does it not count if you don't actually care about the kids at all and were only doing it for a pathetic and gross PR stunt?

Which is it, Elon Musk? Gross PR stunt guy or pedophile? Which are you? I look forward to your clumsy explanation on Twitter.

Either way, this is for you:

Monday, July 16, 2018

Friday, July 13, 2018

Gif of the Day

I wish I could do that.

Straw Bans Hurt Disabled People

In yet another thing I'd never thought about because I'm able-bodied, straw bans make life even more difficult for many disabled people. Unfortunately, because people don't ever listen to disabled individuals, this has only reached even leftist Tumblr after the ban passed in Seattle. Now it's being considered in other areas.

'Disabled People Are Not Part of the Conversation.' Advocates Speak Out Against Plastic Straw Bans

Popular alternatives for plastic straws include options made from biodegradable paper and metal, the latter of which are typically reusable once cleaned. But Jamie Szymkowiak, founder of the Scotland-based “One in Five” disabled rights campaign, says those options may not suit people with certain disabilities. 
For instance, Szymkowiak — who says he has arthrogryposis, a condition that affects the movement of his joints — says some disabled people can take a longer time to drink, leading paper straws to get soggy or even disintegrate, potentially increasing the risk of choking. He added that metal straws are usually inflexible, making them more difficult to use for people who have a mobility-related impairment.

This is a perfect opportunity for us able-bodied people to reflect on our privilege. It's also a perfect time to consider whether the best course of action to protect the planet is to ban minor things like plastic straws or whether we might want to just abolish capitalism to rid the world of the incentive to destroy the world with mass amounts of industrial waste because it creates short-term profits.

These liberal band-aids won't stop environmental disaster and always seem to hurt the disenfranchised. Let's do better.

Thursday, July 12, 2018

Gif of the Day

I identify so strongly with this gif.


I know we got really distracted by the whole "ripping babies from their mothers' arms and throwing them in cages with no plan to ever reunite them" thing. But remember how we have a horrible mass shooting problem in this country and gun humpers who harass teen kids who try to make it so no other kids will have to go through the horrific trauma they did.

Utah gun fanatics trail Parkland survivors speaking tour in armored vehicle with replica machine gun

Have these assholes in Utah every thought about maybe instead using their time to go fuck themselves? Just wondering.

The Utah Gun Exchange, which describes itself as a “patriot marketplace,” is taunting these teens and their supporters by following them around in armored vehicle that has a giant replica machine gun, a replica that is complete with a propane-powered mechanism to create realistic-sounding machine gun fire. They are attempting to attend the teen town halls. Can you imagine traumatizing mass shooting survivors in this way? Well, buckle up because after police stops in New York and Chicago, Bryan Melchior, co-owner of the Utah Gun Exchange, claims that he’s the real victim here.


Why isn't this considered to be criminal harassment? Does the word "harassment" even mean anything in this fucking country?

And also, just what kind of an awful person do you have to be to harass traumatized children?

Literally like,

Wednesday, July 11, 2018

Gif of the Day

The way this cat strokes the child's face is so human it's kind of unnerving.

Also oh my god cats.

Your Daily Dose of ICE Horror

I'd say that this should catch the attention of the "pro-life" crowd but hahahaha we all know they don't actually give a fuck about life.

Pregnant Women Say They Miscarried In Immigration Detention And Didn't Get The Care They Needed

Two weeks after arriving in the US seeking asylum, E, 23, found herself in a detention cell in San Luis, Arizona, bleeding profusely and begging for help from staff at the facility. She was four months pregnant and felt like she was losing her baby. She had come to the US from El Salvador after finding out she was pregnant, in the hopes of raising her son in a safer home. 
“An official arrived and they said it was not a hospital and they weren’t doctors. They wouldn’t look after me,” she told BuzzFeed News, speaking by phone from another detention center, Otay Mesa in San Diego. “I realized I was losing my son. It was his life that I was bleeding out. I was staining everything. I spent about eight days just lying down. I couldn’t eat, I couldn’t do anything. I started crying and crying and crying.”

Is there any end to the horrors of this country's immigration policies? They're not doctors but they could have fucking found her one. She was bleeding for eight days, unable to eat. She could have died. Her baby did. Do those heartless fucks as ICE care at all? No.

About a week after speaking with BuzzFeed News, E gave up her fight for asylum, accepted voluntary departure, and was deported back to El Salvador.

This makes me sick with anger. We treat desperate people just looking for a better life for their children like criminals, put them in cages, refuse them medical care, and kill their unborn children. No word from the so-called "pro-life" administration on this.

Who cares about pregnant women or their babies if they're not white, is that it?

The new ICE directive states that women are not to be held into their third trimester and that ICE is responsible for “ensuring pregnant detainees receive appropriate medical care including effectuating transfers to facilities that are able to provide appropriate medical treatment.” 
But BuzzFeed News has found evidence that that directive is not being carried out. Instead, women in immigration detention are often denied adequate medical care, even when in dire need of it, are shackled around the stomach while being transported between facilities, and have been physically and psychologically mistreated.

Pregnant women shackled around the fucking stomach.

The BuzzFeed article is long and full of many more horrors.

Fucking. Abolish. ICE.

There's Nothing Quite Like Fake Male Allies


This story takes the cake. If you're a feminist then it's likely you've seen the company "Feminist Apparel" pop up now and again. I honestly thought that they must be yet another capitalism scheme to squeeze money out of a popular movement and that their products were probably made in a sweatshop in some exploited country. That may still be true, but the company actually was run by feminists. Or at least, by people claiming to be.

Feminist Apparel CEO Fires Entire Staff After They Learn He's An Admitted Sexual Abuser

I actually laughed at this headline because it's so fucked up but also OF COURSE THAT WOULD FUCKING HAPPEN JESUS FUCKING HELL.

It all came to a grinding halt in June of 2018 when Feminist Apparel staff discovered that the brand’s founder and CEO Alan Martofel had an admitted history of sexually abusing women. In fact, he claims it’s the reason why he started the company in the first place. After asking for his resignation, all nine employees were fired without notice or severance. (Only Martfel and an outside consultant remained.)

This is classic fake, exploitative male ally. This Alan Martofel did an especially good job, made a bunch of money, and ruined a bunch of women's lives. I hope his career and life go the way of that one dude, what's his name, who was a professor of Women's Studies or something. I hope I forget his name because he becomes an obscure nobody that everybody wants to forget.

I can see how people were fooled. At first, reading this article, I was mildly impressed by the story of a guy who realized he had sexually abused women and wanted to reform himself. But here's the thing. Using the self-reform story to start a company you make a profit from is just another way of exploiting women. He could have started a charity, he could have started the company and handed it off to a woman, he could have not fired all the women who worked for them after they confronted him about his past.

It's also pretty clear that he was not up front about his sexually abusive past to his employees upon hiring them, which is especially gross considering the fact that some of his (now former) employees were survivors.

Of course, it all went down the toilet when he fired them all. I don't know what he was thinking. He could have at least salvaged his reputation and maybe had some kind of role in the company. Now he's guaranteed to be flushed straight down the feminist toilet. His messages about the confrontation and resulting firing are disgusting.

Sadly, in the meeting that took place with my now-former employees last Friday, I was made aware that they, unequivocally, do not share my views on either business or feminism.

In other words, this was nothing but a "business" to you. It's also hilarious to accuse women who confronted you for being a former sexual abuser and whom you fired for doing so of being unfeminist. Apparently, feminism to Alan means not holding men accountable for their actions when they're making money off of feminist slogans and their name is Alan Martofel.

Bye bye, Alen. Don't drown on your way down to the sewers.

Amazon Strike This Week

It would have been better to write about this before the strike started but I've been preoccupied with massive amounts of police bullshit.

Amazon workers around the world are striking today for better pay, better treatment, and better conditions. For years now, there have been reports of appalling conditions in Amazon warehouses where people work 10 hours a day under grueling quotas that don't leave them enough time to go to the bathroom. Ambulances have taken to just waiting outside these warehouses because workers routinely collapse from exhaustion.

Undercover journalists have been reporting on this shit for a long time, but nothing has changed. Now Darth Bezos is facing a mass workers' strike.

You can support this strike by participating in a coinciding boycott. You've probably heard that Amazon is planning some kind of "deals day" with the most/best sales of the year. This is a deliberate attempt to undermine the strike and keep their profits up. Do not buy from Amazon on the 16th. Don't even visit the website. You can do even better by not visiting Amazon from now until the 18th, as strikes in European countries have already begun.

Addition actions you can take include canceling your Amazon Prime and putting the strike/Amazon's foul treatment of its workers as the reason. You can also boycott other companies owned by Amazon and Darth Bezos. This includes Whole Foods. And Twitch, nerds.

11 Companies You Might Not Realize Are Owned by Amazon

Jeff Bezos needs to be stopped. He thinks he can do anything he wants because of his money. We all need to buckle down and show him that we find his lack of faith disturbing.

Tuesday, July 10, 2018

Gif of the Day

Me @ my bosses.

I Went to the Police Station to File a Complaint and Left Angrier


I left with more to complain about. I left with my boyfriend completely shaken and in tears. I left all the more determined to see the police abolished.

I filed a complaint with the Bothell Police Department online early Saturday morning after all that shit went down and I was far too upset to sleep. The next day, to my surprise, I got a call from a Bothell officer to follow up. I got some more information from him as well as some excuses and after refusing to take them, he asked me if I wanted to file a complaint. I said yes, confused, because I thought I had already done so, and he said I could come down to the station to file one. I guess doing it online isn't official, maybe I don't know. But I wanted to make sure it was officially on file, so after gathering the nerve for a couple days, I finally went to the station today.

We (myself and my boyfriend because I was too scared to go alone) waited 10-15 minutes for an officer to show up after using an internal phone to explain that I wanted to file a complaint about police conduct. He took us into a little office where he sat at a desk and us in chairs in front of him. He asked me what happened and I explained the domestic violence incident we witnessed and a bit of why I wanted to file a complaint. I really didn't expect to have to say this directly to a cop. I wanted a form I could fill out in peace.

The officer took some time to read the police reports on the incident after saying that he could probably "answer my questions" (I hadn't asked any). He then asked us some questions like whether the couple lived together, and we said we assumed so but weren't totally sure. He then went into some thing about "imagine if you didn't live together but one of you came over all the time but your name isn't on the lease" and I was confused as to where he was going with that. I'm not sure if that was listed as a reason for the woman's arrest, but the male half of that couple didn't seem to be trying to get her to leave at any point, rather he was saying that he was trying to leave and she shouted at him to leave at least once, very likely at least twice.

My boyfriend chimed in to say that he understood but he didn't think it mattered whether she was officially on the lease or not. He and the officer talked a bit and it was soon clear that my boyfriend was not a fan of the police. The officer then made a bit of a speech about how he's a black man and understands stereotypes, and tried to convince us that stereotypes against cops are the same as racial stereotypes. I was not trying to get into an argument about this - I just came for some fucking forms - but I was of course thinking "YOU DON'T HAVE TO BE A COP. YOU CAN TAKE OFF YOUR UNIFORM."

Mostly I nodded respectfully, trying to keep my white privilege in mind. I was also stressed out to the max, fidgeting and picking at my skin constantly. I just wanted to fill out a complaint form or take one home with me. I just wanted to leave.

Instead the officer proceeded to try and explain away everything the cops on scene that horrific night did. I was waiting for an opportunity to explain that I would not be at all surprised if the police were following procedure - my problem is with the procedure. But you know how men are. I was mostly quiet for the rest of the time as my boyfriend and the officer talked. My boyfriend was getting increasingly upset and visibly crying. Actually, the first thing my boyfriend said in that tiny little office/interrogation room was asking me if I had any tissues because he was already tearing up.

At some point, and I might be getting the order of things mixed up because it feels like my brain is actively trying to push the memories out of my head, he asked me what my biggest complaint was, and said it was very unusual for someone to file a complaint when they were not directly involved in the incident. I don't know why he needed to pinpoint the biggest complaint because all of my complaints were important, but I said the most upsetting thing was that they hadn't let the woman get dressed before arresting her and dragging her off in her negligee.

He read both the initial and secondary reports to try and find a reason why they didn't let her get dressed, but there was none given. He said that typically, someone would be allowed to go back inside their home and get properly dressed before being handcuffed, but sometimes they are not. Reasons include if they think there are weapons in the person's home or if the arrestee is combative. The officer asked me if the woman had been "lippy" with the officers on scene.

I want to pause here to say that being upset and loud and yes, even """lippy""" should not disqualify someone from basic dignity. We civilians have a right to clothing even if we're not 100% licking the cops' assholes at all times. Especially women as long as cops have a tendency to sexually assault women.

Oh, and before that, the officer explained to me that cops can indeed determine the primary aggressor in a domestic violence call in under 5 minutes, and in fact in as little as 30 seconds! Okay, Sergeant Collins, you may think that cops can do that. What I am here to say is that no, you fucking can't. Just because you think you got enough to tick off your cop boxes for "probable cause" doesn't mean it's right. This is the entire problem with police. Now this woman has an arrest record, now the state of Washington is charging her with a crime whether her boyfriend wants to press charges or not, now she's had to spend time in one of those awful, disgusting, abuse-ridden jails because the cops didn't want to spend more than five minutes to find out what happened.

Also, he explained that Bothell does have domestic violence advocates, but they're not going to come out at 2 am! By which he means the city/police department isn't going to pay to have enough of these advocates staffed around the clock or pay enough to get them to agree to be on call after business hours, which I'm guessing is when most domestic violence calls happen. He practically laughed at the idea. Ha ha ha.

Back to the big complaint, and my least favorite part of this trip to the friendly neighborhood Bothell Police Department. He then said that we, me and my boyfriend, were in the report, and that it said we were hostile or something like that. He said that """maybe""" the reason they had to haul this woman off without letting her get dressed is because we and the three other people out there were, essentially, making cops nervous. He then asked us to imagine a situation where a big crowd of people were yelling at the police while they were arresting someone naked at McMenamins. The police would want to get the person out of there quick in order to calm things down!

Here are the problems with that. 1) There were, at most, five bystanders watching the situation. Me and my boyfriend in our pajamas (me without shoes on), a man from another building in the complex off by the mailboxes, an old lady, and my apartment manager watching from his window. 2) None of us were yelling or doing anything but watching until they pulled the woman's hands behind her back and handcuffed her. At this point, they already were not going to let her get dressed, because how's she going to do that in handcuffs? It wasn't until then that the yelling started. 3) There were three officers there, all of them with guns, against a tiny gaggle of people in pajamas, one who didn't want to come outside (because cops) and one an old fucking lady.

Why do cops feel so threatened by the people they're supposedly supposed to protect and serve? But also, #2 invalidates the whole argument, which is essentially that it was our fault the woman didn't get clothes. So I'm guessing either the cops were lazy, didn't give a fuck, or the woman was too "lippy" to deserve dignity and protection from being ogled by gross cops. Who knows, maybe the male cops there just wanted a show! Maybe they got off on handcuffing an almost-nude woman. That may seem unreasonable, but it sounds more reasonable to me than "the three cops with guns were afraid of the five unarmed civilians in pajama bottoms."

So that was the biggest bit of bullshit. At this point it was very clear that the officer was trying to convince us not to file a complaint. He was trying to explain away what happened, hoping that we would go "oh, well, if that kind of horrible and heartless conduct is standard procedure, then it's fine!" God knows how long that would have gone on, but our time there came to an abrupt end when my boyfriend, getting more upset, said that he had seen videos of "de-escalation training" in which cops are told/have said that putting their hands on their guns is de-escalation. The officer directly denied this and claimed to have been a de-escalation trainer. He then, for some reason I will never be able to determine, said it was ridiculous to say that grabbing at your gun was de-escalation, and demonstrated that action. He grabbed his holstered gun handle right there in front of us.

My brain is at a complete stop at this point and I'm feeling pretty numb, but my boyfriend does not have this reaction to stress and is also very afraid of guns, moreso than I am. He freaks out a little. He says that he's done and he wants to leave, and gets up from his chair, again visibly crying. The officer gets up as well and says he'll get us the complaint forms and we can request copies of the police reports up front. My boyfriend does not want to turn his back on the officer and says so, but the officer refuses to go out first, saying he'll stand there all day until we leave first. My stress has spiked to the limit so I basically push my poor boyfriend out the door because I need the fuck out of there immediately.

The officer goes to get the forms, I request the police reports and am told to do so online, and I hope I fucking can because now that I'm out of there I realize I'm pretty sure I can't do that when it's a domestic violence case so fuck me. I then tell my boyfriend to wait in the car because he is so upset. It takes a few minutes for the officer to come back, leave again to write down the case number for us, and come back again.

As he's walking me out he starts going into the "officers were following procedure and did nothing wrong" speech again, and is onto "bystanders like your boyfriend are the reason they didn't let the woman get dressed" (he literally said my boyfriend there) when said boyfriend returned because he thought the officer had accosted me (and he had, let's be honest). I finally got the opportunity to say that I understood that the officers on scene were following procedure, and that my problem was with the procedure. This ends the interaction, and we leave.

There's a good chance that there's more that happened that I don't remember just now. I am, once again, very tired and feeling pretty awful. But this time, I'm much angrier. I did not use my personal time to go down to the police station to have a cop try and convince me not to file a complaint. Now I have something new to complain about, and this time I know the officer's name.

They make it as difficult as possible to even file a complaint against an officer. If someone wants to file a complaint about how I do my job, they could just do so on the fucking company Facebook account. I'm not allowed to sit them down in a little room and try to convince them not to file a complaint until I make their significant other cry.

All Sergeant Collins did was harden my resolve. I'm not letting this go. My complaints will be filed, and I will be writing the city council, and I'll be pitching an article about all this until someone accepts it. And I'm betting that someone will.

Introducing the "Unmasking Antifa Act"

Also could be another "Here's Fascism!"

By the way, I made a special new reaction image to go along with that particular post series:

Get it? Haaaaaahahaha it's terrible.

Anyway, back to the bill. Apparently, just over a month ago, some mess called the "Unmasking Antifa Act of 2018" was introduced by  Rep. Donovan, Daniel M., Jr. [R-NY-11].

"To amend title 18, United States Code, to provide penalty enhancements for committing certain offenses while in disguise, and for other purposes."

If you didn't know, dedicated anti-fascists often cover their faces in protest to avoid harassment by fascists, both of the police and non-police variety, and the state in general. We've all seen how cops and often local governments side with fascists and arrest, brutalize, and do everything they can to prosecute and imprison the heroes who try to defend communities against fascists. Covering their faces protects them in this age of video. It's essential for dedicated antifa to exist.

Making this a crime is a transparent attempt to wipe out anti-fascist efforts and allow fascist thugs to overrun our communities and harass, bully, assault, and murder marginalized peoples and their allies into hiding and, ideally (from their perspective), non-existence.

"Whoever, whether or not acting under color of law, while in disguise, including while wearing a mask, injures, oppresses, threatens, or intimidates any person in any State, Territory, Commonwealth, Possession, or District in the free exercise or enjoyment of any right or privilege secured to him by the Constitution or laws of the United States, or because of his having so exercised the same, shall be fined under this title, imprisoned not more than 15 years, or both."

Defend yourself against a fascist thug in a mask and you can get 15 years in prison. That's what this does. Hell, "oppresses, threatens, or intimidates" can be interpreted widely, god knows how far they'll take it. Can you even yell "fuck of, nazi" in a mask at a shithead with a tiki torch without being thrown in prison for 15 years?

This is still in committee and I hope it gets nowhere, but the fact that it exists at all is alarming. I'll be checking up on it periodically. Be prepared to fight it.

Monday, July 9, 2018

Gif of the Day

When dogs lick their paws like they're cats, say "awww" if you agree.

Why is This Allowed to Happen?

Can somebody please explain to me how we've reached this point as a nation?

A 1-Year-Old Boy Had a Court Appearance Before an Immigration Judge in Phoenix

The 1-year-old boy in a green button-up shirt drank milk from a bottle, played with a small purple ball that lit up when it hit the ground and occasionally asked for “agua.” 
Then it was the child’s turn for his court appearance before a Phoenix immigration judge, who could hardly contain his unease with the situation during the portion of the hearing where he asks immigrant defendants whether they understand the proceedings. 
“I’m embarrassed to ask it, because I don’t know who you would explain it to, unless you think that a 1-year-old could learn immigration law,” Judge John W. Richardson told the lawyer representing the 1-year-old boy.

Brief moment to appreciate how Time kept repeating "1-year-old" in the article. It might have been for SEO purposes but it works as an effective rhetorical device anyway, reminding the reader that THIS DEFENDANT WAS A 1-YEAR-OLD.

But let's talk about how fucked up a country needs to be to require a literal bottle-drinking baby to appear before a judge who has to ask him if he understands the proceedings. At least this one had a lawyer. Many of the children made to appear in these unfunny Saturday Night Live skits come to life don't have any legal representation, because they don't get constitutional rights.

Also, this case has some additional fucked up details.

In Phoenix on Friday, the Honduran boy named Johan waited over an hour to see the judge. His attorney told Richardson that the boy’s father had brought him to the U.S. but that they had been separated, although it’s unclear when. He said the father, who was now in Honduras, was removed from the country under false pretenses that he would be able to leave with his son.

One moment, please.

Carry on.

In the end, Johan was granted a voluntary departure order that would allow the government to fly him to Honduras so that he could be reunited with his family. An attorney with the Florence Project, an Arizona-based nonprofit that provides free legal help to immigrants, said both his mother and father were in Honduras.

Well, I hope they don't all die horribly there, because that is a distinct possibility.

The United States of America is officially the United States of Disgrace.

Bothell, WA Police Arrest and Haul Off a Woman in Negligee, I Witness Everything


Early Saturday morning, I became one of the many people in the U.S. who will witness either or both a domestic violence situation and/or police fuckery. I am still feeling incredibly troubled by what I saw, and "troubled" is really an understatement. I can't accurately describe this awful feeling in my gut. I honestly think this experience might have been traumatizing. Not exaggerating.

I wrote down every detail I can remember from the night. Buckle up.

Saturday morning, around 2 am, I was startled out of a dead sleep by the sound of a woman screaming “help” at the top of her lungs. It took a second to figure out that I was not dreaming, and at the same time my significant other woke and said “did you hear that?” We scrambled out of bed and threw pajamas on. I ran out into the apartment parking lot (we live in an outside-access apartment building) to try and find the source of the screaming, but it had gone quiet. I’ll never forget the feeling of panic and horror, wondering if a woman was being murdered or already dead while I stood frozen in place. I was disoriented from sleep and the sound had come through our open bedroom window. I had no way to determine which apartment it came from.

My SO ran down the length of the building and finally heard commotion coming from a couple apartments down from ours. That’s how loud the screaming was. They were inside a couple apartments down and it woke us both up from dead sleep at 2 am. My SO ran to call the police. He wasn’t the only one to do so, but still, a mistake, and my mistake for not stopping him.

Probably less than a minute later, a man comes out of the apartment from where the screaming originated, soon followed by a very angry and upset woman yelling at him. She was wearing a pretty revealing negligee or nighty or whatever you call it, no real pants. The man repeatedly apologized to us and other bystanders who had gathered outside at this point, and appeared to try and calm her down. There was arguing, she was demanding her phone from him and he claimed not to have it, she demanded her purse from him and he said it was inside.

It took 5-10 minutes for the police to arrive from the point my SO called. I now know that the man called the police before they went outside, perhaps before my SO called. Other people called, too. I heard no sirens, but three cops walked up into the parking lot from the apartment complex entrance. They approached the couple and the woman turned and stormed back toward her apartment. The cops placed their hands on their holstered guns and demanded she sit on the ground. I don’t know what exactly they were afraid of from this small woman in negligee. She could not have hid a weapon on that outfit.

She sat on the ground as ordered. The cops spent maybe five minutes talking to each individual separately. And I don’t mean five minutes each, but total. After this, they approached the woman, forced her hands behind her back and handcuffed her. She started sobbing and saying “I’m sorry” and when they tried to lift her up, I heard her say “wait, wait, I have a bad hip.”

At this point, my apartment manager, whom I fucking love, yelled loudly out of his window: “What are you doing??” followed by something I can’t remember precisely, but the message was “you’re arresting HER and not HIM??” My SO shouted at the woman to say nothing and get a lawyer. A cop started to ask her a question and my SO interrupted, repeating the advice. I tell my SO to get out his camera and film, and he does. Then another man approaches, also angry and shouting at the cops, saying that he lives in a separate building in the complex but could still hear the woman scream.

Through all the chaos, I notice the cops leading the woman away. Their cars are out of sight and I start to feel panicky, and I follow, even though I’m terrified because cops scare me and guns scare me and these cops putting their hands on their guns in a very obviously threatening manner. All I can think is that this woman only has a revealing negligee on and cops are taking her out of sight, and I know what cops do to women. My SO yells at me to come back because he’s terrified for my safety, and I hesitate, and I don’t know what the fuck to do. There’s still yelling going on.

I wish I had had the presence of mind to demand she be given clothing, or to take off the zip-up hoodie I had grabbed for myself and offer it to this woman. Fuck, I wish I would have offered her my pants. I wasn’t wearing underwear, but the cops can look at my bare ass and hairy cooch for all I care. But I don’t, I’m stunned and paralyzed and I turn back at my SO’s urging. At this point I’m crying. My apartment manager has come out to talk to the cops even though he did not want to, another cop is talking to the guy from the other building.

I don’t know how much time passed during all of this. At some point the cop who led the woman away, who was also a woman, approaches us, and I ask, crying, if the arrested woman was given a jacket or something. She doesn’t respond, instead turning her attention to my SO, who is starting to rant but also clearly afraid. I ask again if the woman was given a jacket or something because she was hardly wearing anything, my voice shaking and strained from trying not to break down sobbing, and I don’t remember exactly what she said, but it was basically “yeah, she’ll be given something,” which if you pay attention is a “no” to my actual question.

She may have told us to go inside at this point, and we refused, it’s hard to remember because I was so beyond upset. The cop then left us and we stayed outside for a while longer. I wanted to out of concern for my apartment manager, who was still talking to the cops. The man who was the other half of the domestic violence call is still outside, still free. My SO and I are talking about how fucked up it all is, and he’s like staring at us and starts saying something to us from a distance. My SO accurately responds that he’s not even listening to what the guy is saying and starts ranting about how fucked up the police are again (rightly). This is when I finally go inside. My SO soon follows as I’m shakily trying to drink some water. At one point I wonder aloud if anyone got names and badge numbers, and my SO volunteers to do so, a little too enthusiastically, and I get cold feet and tell him not to, because I am afraid he’ll be arrested or worse.

I felt so powerless and was still terrified for the woman who was arrested. Somehow we landed on the idea of bringing her clothes because we didn’t trust the cops to give her any. We actually drove in the middle of the night to the local jail, only to be told that she had been booked at the county jail. I still don’t know why.

We returned home and I crawled into bed, not because I thought I could sleep but because I felt a powerful urge to huddle under the covers. I stared into space for I don’t know how long, going over and over the whole thing in my head, as my SO paced the apartment. I finally fell into a fitful sleep, got up a couple hours later, and went to work.

My SO drove me to work, actually, and on the way there, I got a call from the Bothell Police Department. I had practically forgotten that in my shocked, angry, horrified state in the middle of the night I had filed a complaint online about the whole incident, which unfortunately requires giving them a lot of information about yourself, and they actually called me about it. That was when I learned that they arrested her on domestic violence charges, finding her to be the “primary instigator” of the violence. My SO later learned that they did this because the man called the police, dispatch heard the woman yelling over the phone, and the man had blood on his pants when the police arrived. The police claimed they had no choice but to arrest her because of this. She will be there until she can see a judge on Monday.

I asked the guy who called me about them not letting her put on clothes before or after arresting her, and he said she “would have” been given some at the county jail. When exactly this “would have” happened, I don’t know.

Like I said before, I am completely fucked up over this. I’ll never forget the horror and panic of being woken up by screams for help and not knowing if something terrible is happening to someone, and not knowing where to find them. I’ll never get over seeing police arrest the one who screamed for help and hauling her off in fucking negligee, having heard many horror stories of cops sexually assaulting/raping detained women. I hate how scared and paralyzed I felt. I hate that there are these people who get to run around and make bad situations a thousand times worse and we’re supposed to be grateful for it.

I don’t know what happened between this couple last night before I was yanked out of sleep by a scream for help. I know a woman screamed for help, and that same woman was arrested while the man walked free. I know cops spent barely any time at all talking to the pair before deciding to arrest a woman in negligee without letting her dress. I know they treated her and the rest of us as hostile, and at times like a threat. I knew I was afraid for the woman and for my and my SO’s safety. I know I feel traumatized by what happened. I know others have witnessed so much worse, without whiteness to protect them.

We are going to keep following up with police and demanding answers. On Monday, my day off, I’m going to contact my city council, my mayor, and I am going to keep asking why a woman was hauled off in a police car in negligee, without pants, without shoes, after five minutes of gathering information. I am going to keep asking why the cops had to threaten to shoot a small woman in nothing but negligee and make me feel afraid for my safety. The cops kept talking about our and their safety, but I have never felt so unsafe. There was no threat to the police from a woman in negligee and a couple sleep-addled people in pajamas.

Today, I plan to go down to the police department and file a formal complaint about how the police handled this. I'm also going to be writing to my city council and the Mayor of Bothell asking why this is acceptable police procedure and why there was not a domestic violence advocate there with them. We'll also be calling to find out the results of the young woman's arraignment, and offering ourselves to her as witnesses.

It's one thing to write about this kind of shit every goddamn weekday. It's quite another to be woken up by it at two in the morning and then have it play out before my very eyes. I can't imagine how traumatizing it must be to witness much worse police conduct, including murder.

This is all cops do anymore. They don't protect and serve. They come, they make things worse, they threaten, they harm, they traumatize. I hate that there are just these people out there among us who get to terrorize us and make us miserable and if we don't totally roll over and take it, we're liable to end up in jail or dead. That's the reality of it. Even if the police used to be better, this was always how they were going to end up. The police as an institution needs to be abolished. Nothing less is acceptable.

Thursday, July 5, 2018

Gif of the Day


Good Fucking Question


He Is a Member of a Violent White Supremacist Group. So Why Is He Working for a Defense Contractor With a Security Clearance?

There likely isn’t such a thing as a “typical” violent white extremist in America in 2018. Still, Michael Miselis — a University of California, Los Angeles doctoral student with a U.S. government security clearance to work on sensitive research for a prominent defense contractor — makes for a pretty unusual case.

Actually, it's not really a good question. In that the answer is pretty obvious.

Why wouldn't a violent white supremacist have defense security clearance in our violent white supremacist country? What's more white supremacist that the U.S. military?

And this guy is a perfect example.

In video shot in Charlottesville, a bearded, husky man is seen in a red Make America Great Again hat with his hands wrapped in tape that came in handy for the brawling that occurred that day. During one encounter, the unidentified man in the red hat pushed an African-American protester to the ground and began pounding on him, video of the episode shows; moments later, a known RAM member choked and bloodied a pair of female counterprotesters. The possible RAM member also had turned up in video shot during hours of combat at a Trump rally in Berkeley, as well. Wearing protective goggles to ward off pepper spray, the man fought alongside RAM members, wrestling one protester to the ground and punching others.

He must feel like a big man, beating up women and black men in defense of the powerful.

I'll be shocked if this Michael Miselis loses his clearance after being exposed. Sounds like both he and his company are ignoring the whole thing, hoping it will go away. But the rest of us can memorize his name and face and ostracize him. Here's a nice shot of the piece of shit:

That's America for you. Fucking coward.

Amazing Women of Color

Hopefully you've already heard about Therese Patricia Okoumou, a Congolese immigrant, who climbed onto the Statue of Liberty in protest of the children being held in prison camps without any plan to reunite them with their families. There are some amazing photos of her sitting at the feet of the Lady of Liberty, and at least one horrible photo I've seen of a white cop choking her out under the statue's sandal.

I'm not proud of the United States of America. I'm not proud to be an American. I'm proud of and appreciative of those within its made up borders who fight for those who have been oppressed by the U.S. state, and the oppressed who fight for those who have even less than they do.

This woman risked her life. Perhaps the only reason she made it out alive is because the press was all over it. But that cop still choked Okoumou out, and that is the most shameful thing I've ever seen. Imagine being the cop who choked out a black woman doing nothing but sitting at the feet of the Statue of Liberty to protest the incarceration of children who fled their homes for their lives only to be ripped from the arms of their mothers, maybe never to see them again. I hope that cop can't sleep until he quits his job.

I don't want to post the photo of her in the choke hold, but if you're white I suggest that you seek it out and sit with that image for a bit.

Thank you, Therese Patricia Okoumou. You are a true American hero.

Here is a fundraiser for her legal fees. She deserves to have those paid in full and so much more.

Wednesday, July 4, 2018

Gif of the Day

Happy Day.

The Second Civil War, July 4 2018 - July 4 2018

You know I don't officially celebrate the "Independence Day" of the U.S., though I will take any excuse not to work, being the lazy leftie communist I am. But I will celebrate the official start of the Second Civil War, as declared by Alex Jones. I suggest you celebrate, too, by checking out the #SecondCivilWarLetter hashtag on Twitter. Here are some of my favorites:

The funniest thing is that leftists are better at making fun of themselves than MAGAs will ever be.

Tuesday, July 3, 2018

Gif of the Day

You can't escape THE LICKS.



We all know that Lord Dampnut is a first class asshole, but this takes the fucking cake.

Trump declines request to lower flags in memory of Capital Gazette shooting victims

Are you kidding me? It takes exactly as much energy to say "yes" to lowering the flags as it does to say "no." This is a deliberate slap in the face to the victims, the survivors, their families, journalists everywhere, and freedom of the press in general.

Trump has ordered flags lowered for previous mass shootings, including in May after the deaths of 10 people at Santa Fe High School in Santa Fe, Texas, and the shooting at Marjory Stoneman Douglas High School in Parkland, Fla., in February that left 17 dead. 
While Buckley had previously thought he might lower the city's own flags regardless of the president's decision, the mayor said his wife talked him out of that. 
"At this point in time, it would start to polarize people and I don't want to make people angry," he said.

Hi yes I'm angry that they weren't lowered. People are fucking angry, and for good reason. You can't stop that, so you might as well do the decent thing. The halfway decent thing. The bottom-of-the-barrel mandatory-if-you-want-into-the-human-club thing.

Seriously. Trump. Just get on Twitter and tweet "fuck all dead journalists." It's the same thing.

And people are trying to tell us on the left to be "civil."

Monday, July 2, 2018

Gif of the Day

This was supposed to be posted last Friday but it was saved as a draft somehow.

Also humans are weird.

Guest Post: The Importance of Recognizing the Unique Health Needs of LGBTQ Women

Kate Harveston is a political writer from Pennsylvania. Her favorite topics are feminist-focused, but she writes on a wide variety of social and cultural issues. If you enjoy her work, you can follow her on Twitter or visit her blog, Only Slightly Biased.

Discussions about health care in the modern world often get reduced to dollars and cents. What usually becomes lost in the rhetoric is the idea that health care is nothing less than a moral obligation. That obligation extends to people of all races and creeds, all genders — whether “binary” or otherwise — and all sexual orientations. Anything less is an insult to human dignity, say health care activists championing single-payer health care and expansions of Medicaid.

The lack of affordable and reliable health care for “standard citizens” is a long enough uphill climb, but it gets even more complex when we consider the unique needs and risks of our minority communities — including LGBTQ women — who already face violence, threats of violence, discrimination and a lack of basic resources even before conservative politicians enter the rhetorical fray.

Recognizing and providing for the unique needs of women in the LGBTQ community is as urgent a moral issue as any we face — and in many ways exemplifies the larger human struggle for health dignity.

Disparities in Risk and Care for Lesbian, Bisexual and Transgender Women

Living one’s best life in a world dominated by profit-driven health care and insurance companies is difficult enough already. But things get even more problematic when we take a closer look at the risk factors unique to members of the LGBTQ community. Affordable access to timely and competent health care is a human rights issue, which makes LGBTQ women second-class citizens by most standard definitions.

Here are some of the risks and unaddressed needs among minority women:

  • Lesbian women are far less likely to seek out preventive services related to cancer..
  • Transgender women are at a far greater risk of developing mental health issues, including suicidal thoughts and behaviors, as well as STDs, HIV and domestic and social violence. 
  • Members of the LGBTQ community are twice as likely as heterosexual individuals to abuse tobacco, leading to 30,000 preventable deaths per year from smoking-related complications. 
  • Bisexual women face an even greater risk of bodily violence, assault, stalking and rape than heterosexual women and even lesbian women. 

Why is this?

First, it’s a byproduct of run-of-the-mill discrimination and harassment. One might’ve hoped our collective furor over people’s sexual orientations would have abated by 2018, but conservative thought and politicking is still milking this wedge issue for all it’s worth. And now it appears conservative extremists will hold the Supreme Court for another generation, which means LGBTQ rights have never been in a more precarious position than they are right now.

In other words, when the LGBTQ community isn’t facing institutionalized discrimination in the form of a lack of basic resources and infrastructure, they face discrimination of the more personal kind, which often leads minority women into despair, depression and self-neglect. Even when there are resources available, the often-poor mental health of these women — and the unrelenting message from the mainstream that they’re not worthy of dignity — can lead them to postpone or not bother seeking attention for their medical needs.

Which brings us to the second reason for the huge discrepancy: the apparent lack of resources and funding for health care in general, particularly for minority communities.

Addressing the Lack of Resources and Support

Over the past few years, the Department of Health and Human Services has turned its attention to the coverage gap between the LGBTQ community and “mainstream” America. In 2011, they published a series of recommendations on addressing the unique and institutionally neglected health needs of lesbian, gay, bisexual and transgender women.

They update these recommendations every year, but here are the basics:

  • Better enforcement of visitation rights in hospitals for non-heteronormative couples. 
  • Improved clarification in Medicare and Medicaid rules pertaining to spousal coverage and protection for same-sex partners and married couples. 
  • The establishment of a nationwide resources database for older members of the LGBTQ community so they can better understand their needs and the care options available to them. 
  • The Health Resources and Services Administration began exploring and publishing information about lesbian and bisexual women’s health needs for the first time as part of its Women’s Health USA reports

What we see here is a coalition of compassionate, left-leaning governmental and private endeavors that have come together to raise the public’s consciousness about, and provide practical solutions for, the very real coverage gap between LGBTQ women and the rest of society. The beleaguered Affordable Care Act also set its sights on closing this gap by introducing far more comprehensive protections for minorities when it comes to discrimination and denied coverage on the basis of gender identity and sexual orientation.

The long-promised repeal of the ACA by Republican extremists would constitute a willful dismantling of these small steps toward health care equanimity and universal dignity for all people. It’s worth noting the attack on Planned Parenthood and other community-based health providers — which lately has taken the form of denying federal funding for such providers — would also strike a blow to the tentative progress being made here. The LGBTQ community frequently relies on community health centers because they face discrimination elsewhere or, indeed, a lack of any other options in their area.

From cancer screenings and HIV and STD testing and treatment, as well as transition-related aftercare, community medicine is the first and last resort for many members of our minorities. Since 2001, Catholic Church-owned hospitals in the U.S. have increased by 22 percent. It is extremely common for such establishments to turn women away because of their sexual orientation, marital status and other factors.

In some of the more extreme cases, it can take multiple years for unmarried and minority women to successfully find a doctor willing to perform basic outpatient procedures, including tubal ligations. That’s what institutional-level discrimination, informed by conservative and Christian politics, looks like.

A Plea for Health Care Dignity

Nobody is asking for special treatment for minorities. The campaigns underway today — and the marches and the lobbying by compassionate human rights groups — are in the name of equality, which in this case looks like unequivocal, affordable, no-strings-attached health care dignity for all. The LGBTQ community finds itself up against an apparently immovable and very well-funded juggernaut powered by equal parts religious rancor and political theater.

As for our so-called lack of money and resources? Consider that America, a very rich and powerful nation, is virtually the last “developed” country standing that does not have a comprehensive and universal health care system for its citizens. Once the U.S. remedies that and joins the U.N. and the rest of modern society, the practical and financial barriers standing between LGBTQ women and health care dignity will fall away. After that happens, all this prejudice will look even more vestigial than it does already.

Update on the NWDC Occupation

The day I went down to Tacoma and ended up helping the Northwest Detention Center occupiers voluntarily leave the area, I expressed disappointment that they were letting themselves be evicted. Turns out the decision to leave had to do with complaints made by the Puyallup tribe. I don't know the exact details, but occupiers have set up once again, this time under the leadership and guidance of the local tribe. Which is fantastic.

I apologize for being presumptuous before. This is the right way to do things. I'm hoping I can make it down on many other Thursdays, because that's the only day I have access to a car all day without having to go somewhere for work.

If only I could be there every day without having to worry about losing my apartment and my job. It's almost like somebody set it up to make it difficult to protest.

Friday, June 29, 2018

I Have No Headlines


So, yesterday was interesting. By which I mean it was mostly terrible. The entire week has been pretty terrible, what with the Supreme Court being Supremely Awful followed by the news that it's going to become much worse soon. Then today you had a mass shooting at a the Capital Gazette because pundits, douchefucks like Milo Youneedtostopolis, and the fucking president have been encouraging people to murder journalists, plus this fucking happened:

I still can't even fit that into my head. I know this is privilege at work but part of me is trying to believe that it was a terrible mistake.

I even managed to trip over my own shoes on a gravel road and scrape the fuck out of my knee.

And the cherry on top of this shit sundae was learning that the lead singer and songwriter of all three of my favorite bands, literally, is a fucking rapist.

I don't typically mention being a Tool fan because A) there were already persistent rumors that Maynard is a general dillweed and B) the vast majority of Tool fans are fucking embarrassing. But the truth is that Tool, A Perfect Circle, and later Puscifer have been very important to me. They have gotten me through several hard times in my life. So many hard times. They were basically my entire spiritual life. I was raised Christian but that was nothing compared to sitting back and listening to the softer and trippier songs from those bands and contemplating the meaning of life.

I believe everyone has a spiritual side that they develop through different activities, and mine has primarily been listening to music. There were periods where I considered and even tried to start a kind of spiritual practice that was just listening to certain Puscifer songs in the morning. And also, just the rage and pain of the earlier Tool and A Perfect Circle albums were such important parts of my adolescence. I felt connected to that man.

I'm not the first person who has felt this way. Who has had a role model or favorite singer or whoever turn out to be a horrible person. What's weird is that I'm not surprised. I was kind of waiting for news like this to come out. I don't know how, or why, but I just knew. But at least I could deny it. And part of me is glad that I got to see all three bands in concert before this happened, but also, those memories are tainted now.

The worst part is that I can never listen to any of that music again without being reminded of what he did. All that music is tainted now. It's not that I just won't listen to it out of principle. I don't even expect that from people. I just can't. I know if I try, every note will fill me with grief and anger and disgust. So many songs that were so important to me. I can't even have one last listen without the taint of that man's sins.

Fuck you, Maynard. Fuck you for hurting all those women so horribly, and fuck you for pretending not to be a complete piece of shit long enough to make your music important to so many fans who are now crushed. If hell is real, I hope you burn.

I can't put words to just how hurt I am right now. I feel a deep sense of grief. I want to share it with someone but I also don't want to subject any other Tool fans to how I feel right now. I don't even know how to tell my boyfriend, but it's going to come out soon because I am not okay.

And if you came here to defend that waste of oxygen, do not bother. Do not comment. Fuck off in advance. I don't care what you think. I will delete your comment without reading it and block you. Thanks.

Thursday, June 28, 2018

Gif of the Day


Police Evict Protesters, I Languish in Tacoma

 I went to the protest at the Northwest Detention Center in Tacoma today to find it being packed up because the police have evicted the occupiers. I got to help clean up though!

Now I'm hanging out in a parking garage in Tacoma eating a late lunch and looking up Starbucks locations to hang out. There's still going to be a noise demo at the detention center tonight at 9. I'm disappointed that the Occupy Movement at the Detention Center was a bust but mostly I'm angry at the Tacoma Police Department for being a bunch of fucking jackboot shitheads.

They were evicted because something something citizens' right of way? As though the occupiers were blocking traffic in the middle of nowhere where no one ever goes except to protest the Detention Center. It's bullshit.

I was really hoping we could get a huge movement outside of the Detention Center going and actually get some momentum in the effort to close down all immigrant detention centers. But I doubt that will happen now. People didn't care about these imprisoned immigrants before and they won't going forward.

Anyway, I need to find a bathroom and maybe a coffee because this country makes me so, so tired.

Wednesday, June 27, 2018

Gif of the Day

This was such a good show.

There Goes The Judicial Branch

Hey, remember when we could have had a halfway reasonable human being on the Supreme Court to replace Scalia but Republicans were like "lol fuck Democracy" and refused to vote on him or any candidate President Obama put forward because he's a black man?

Now we've had a month of 5-4 votes upholding the worst shit in the country.

Gorsuch Casts Decisive Vote as Supreme Court Crushes Public Sector Unions

Supreme Court Upholds Texas Voting Maps That Were Called Discriminatory

Supreme Court upholds Trump travel ban in 5-4 vote

Supreme Court Sides With California Anti-Abortion Pregnancy Centers

And if you think this shit is bad, it's about to get worse.

Justice Kennedy, US Supreme Court's pivotal vote, to retire

Kennedy is the guy who actually gives a fuck about the U.S. Constitution and the justice system, and has helped us gain equal rights for same sex couples and upheld Roe v. Wade time and time again. He's still a piece of shit, because he voted with conservatives on all the awful shit listed above, but we're about to get a second Trump Supreme Court Justice.

We're fucked. Bye bye abortion rights. RIP unions. True story, I just accidentally typed "RIP humans" there, and you know what? Also accurate.

I am extremely bummed out right now. At what point exactly would I be justified in fleeing this country? I know people say I should stay and fight but fuck, for what?

Tuesday, June 26, 2018

Gif of the Day

There are like five adorable things about this 6-second gif oh my god.

Recommended Reading

Fuck civility, and fuck Democrats.

Shut the fuck up, Pelosi. Fuck your evoking of Trump's fucking campaign slogan and fuck your respectability politics.

Civility is a trap and a scam that helps keep the most marginalized and desperate of a society in their place. It's also pure bullshit, it's fake. There is no civility in a country run by a serial rapist, racist, fascist monster like Trump and there is no civility in a country that tears children from their parents and puts them in prisons. There is no civility in a country where police gun down people nearly every day and school shootings happen every week.

Also, this:

The Privilege Of ‘Civilized’ Political Discourse

Our government has been a lot of things over the years, but it has never been civilized. Yes, we are currently discussing the penis size of presidential candidates during debates, but nobody is being caned on the Senate floor. It’s also been a while since a senatorial fistfight broke out. The Tea Party members of the House of Representatives may seem pretty extreme, but they have yet to break out fireplace pokers and rumble in the halls. 
Beyond our esteemed elected representatives, the voting public has always been far from peaceful. Voting day in the 1800s reliably involved widespread brawls at voting stations, rampant voter intimidation, ballot-box stuffing, and other shenanigans. My point is, never in our history have we had “civilized political discourse.”

Ijeoma Oluo, once again.